#why are all of my ethan headcanons so damn long!!!!!!!!!!!

[storyofmychoices]

I can't believe I'm just getting to this now! 😭 I'm so sorry! I really wanted to wait until I didn't have a headache to enjoy it fully! That day seems far off, so I decided to read it anyway. I can't wait any longer. I love these three and any adventures they have were sure to be a great time.

You did not disappoint at all. I am so so in love with this. I love how you took Lily's drabble and extended it into this hilarious story! I just love the these three/six!!!!!

“Jesus! No wonder Tobias didn’t want to let you go. If that’s your reaction to a frozen margarita... in public... I can only imagine when you’re reacting to... other things... privately.” 

lolol oh, Casey! I love her so so much! But Merida not being afraid to call her out for it haha

okay, but also... THIS WHOLE SECTION!!!! 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣

Remaining in her reclined state of ecstasy, a grin crossed Casey’s lips. “Now you understand why it was so difficult for him to part with me.” She reached for her drink and took another long sip with an equally salacious reaction. As Merida laughed, a blushing Olivia gazed around to ensure no one else was watching. “It’s good to know that you have a future in adult film voiceovers if medicine doesn’t work out for you, MacTavish,” Merida grinned. “Wait!” Olivia exclaimed, placing her drink on the table by her side. “That’s a thing?” Casey tilted her head in her friend’s direction, laying a hand on her thigh. “Dear, sweet, Olivia... sometimes I almost feel guilty for how much we’re corrupting you.” “Yeah, I don’t,” Merida snorted.

Casey is amazing. I wish I had 1 ounce of confidence as her. She is everything!

Oh, poor sweet, Olivia! These ladies are a terrible influence! (but in the best way possible!)

“We need to come up with a porn name for you,” Merida insisted after emptying her own drink. “Not that I don’t expect your medical career to work out... just for fun.”

... but now I want to see that conversation play out lol What is Casey's porn name lol

“Oh, go easy on him, Mer... you can’t blame him for being a little insecure. He knows damn well if I met you before meeting him or before you met Ethan, he would have some serious competition on his hands.” “Competition?” Merida barked. “As if. I would have wiped the floor with that cocky bastard.”

Gahh could you imagine!!! Merida and Tobias fighting over Casey. The real winner is definitely Casey

“Yeah... I’m just wondering... would Bryce have had competition, too?” “Of course!” Casey insisted. “Liv, you’re stunning! I would have fought the man off with a stick!”

Awww Liv is so cuteeee! She would 100% say/think that.

I am 1000% sure that meant the absolute world to Olivia, she probably felt so so good to hear that and will never forget it.

“Meh,” Casey waved dismissively. “I think everyone is a little bit bi. They just haven’t all admitted it yet.”

.... Olivia is a little tiny bit bi.... I always headcanoned her as bi-curious. She had thoughts about other girls/women, but never acted on them, mostly because she was just shy and unsure. I never ever posted that HC because this fandom already jumps on characters for not being bi enough, so Olivia being bi-curious... I just felt it wasn't worth the hate. But since I doubt anyone is reading my comments here beside you, I'm happy to share it with you! 💛

(I kinda liked the idea of Bi-Bryce being super supportive of Olivia and encouraging her to at least kiss a girl once, just to see for herself. Even if she decides she didn't like it, he'd never want to stand in the way of anyone's journey of self-identity)

anywayyyy back to YOUR story

oooo the guys talking about the girls. Okay they're so sad but precious. I love how much they love their ladies and how much they respect and admire them. They know they're lucky (as they should) and they don't want to lose what they have.

Their friendship is wonderful too. The way you write Tobias and Ethan is amazing!! Their banter and dynmaic is perfection.

“Yeah,” Bryce laughed nervously, “But they love us. Besides, Olivia is the shy one... she wouldn’t be flirting or anything like that.” His friends' heads spun his way with incredulous grins on their faces. “Maybe once,” Tobias chuckled. “But she’s friends with our girls now.” “Yep,” Ethan agreed. “She’s learning at the feet of the masters.”

heheh I love that! They are definitely a (good) bad influence on her. And she's better for it.

“Right, right,” Bryce chuckled as images of his sweet Olivia filled his mind... his sweet Olivia, who had become so much more outgoing since...  “But they’re not there to party or anything. Right? By now, they’re probably back in the room, watching a movie or having tea.”

Tea? Really, Bryce? lol Oh, poor, sweet, Bryce! hehe

Merida picked up the phone instead. “Hey, T.  She’s fine. Maybe one Mai Tai too many, but she’s fine. I’m supervising.” “Oh, Jesus Christ,” Ethan groaned. “Now I feel better.” “Is that my grump? Let me see him.”

Grumpy Ethan is my favorite and Merida teasing him is the best

“Olivia?” Mer laughed, turning the phone toward Olivia. Downing the large mug of beer in her hand, Olivia was eating up the attention of her adoring crowd, yelling, “CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG!” She dropped her empty mug to the table, jumped on her chair, and yelled, “Woooooo!”. Bryce’s eyes went wide. “Olivia?” “You’re right,” Ethan replied without emotion. “She’s the demure one of the group.”

LOLOL Liv is having an amazing time, but now poor Bryce!!

“I know,” Bryce fretted, “but... what have your girls done to Olivia?” “I don’t know, buddy,” Tobias sneered. “But if Casey teaches her any other tricks while they’re gone... I assure you... you’ll be a very happy man when they return.”

She's still your Olivia, she's just enjoying letting loose for a night. I'm sure the hangover tomorrow will be more than enough to want to spend the rest of the day snuggled in your arms... maybe with that tea you were thinking about lol

But also, Casey and Merida teaching her some other tricks 😏😏😏

Okay, but this, this little gem here was my favorite, I spent FAR too long laughing at this!!!

“You know what... bring him a Blue Hawaiian,” he said, throwing his arm over Bryce’s shoulder.

Like it should be as funny as I read it, but seriously laughing hysterically. My puppy is like WTF is wrong with you.

Oh poor Bryce, don't worry, you're girl will be back sooner than you know. Her heart belongs to you! and in the meantime, your wonderful friends are there to get you back on track for your own fun night.

Thank you so so much for writing this and always including my lovely girl with yours! I seriously adore the way you write them all. They always make me smile and laugh (and cry... but in a good way).

You are the very very best! Thank you for your friendship and for this lovely story! I adore you so much!!!

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Happy Fandom Love Day @lilyoffandoms! This picks up where your little kidnapping of my girl took off earlier this week! lol I hope you enjoy it. Thanks for being you, Lily! 💜

Book: Open Heart Pairings: Ethan x Merida, Bryce x Olivia, Tobias x Casey Rating: Teen Words: 1,600 Summary: It took a lot to get Casey away from Tobias for a Girl's Weekend Away, but Merida and Olivia had it all under control. Now, let's see what they got into while they were gone and how the guys coped back in Boston. A/N: Merida and Ethan belong to @lilyoffandoms and Bryce and Olivia belong to @storyofmychoices.

Eyes hidden behind dark sunglasses, Casey raised the frosty beverage to her lips and let the sweet liquor coat her tongue. She let out a wickedly slow, delightful groan as the cool drink washed over her, directly contrasting with the hot sun pulsating off her skin. She had surrendered. Falling back into her lounge chair with a sigh of satisfaction, everything felt right with the world. Perhaps that’s because she was unaware of two sets of eyes fixed on her from either side as this spectacle unfolded.

Olivia fought back a giggle as her eyes met Merida’s over their satiated friend. Olivia might be willing to let this slide, but that wasn’t Merida’s style.

“Jesus! No wonder Tobias didn’t want to let you go. If that’s your reaction to a frozen margarita... in public... I can only imagine when you’re reacting to... other things... privately.” 

Remaining in her reclined state of ecstasy, a grin crossed Casey’s lips. “Now you understand why it was so difficult for him to part with me.”

She reached for her drink and took another long sip with an equally salacious reaction. As Merida laughed, a blushing Olivia gazed around to ensure no one else was watching.

“It’s good to know that you have a future in adult film voiceovers if medicine doesn’t work out for you, MacTavish,” Merida grinned.

“Wait!” Olivia exclaimed, placing her drink on the table by her side. “That’s a thing?”

Casey tilted her head in her friend’s direction, laying a hand on her thigh.

“Dear, sweet, Olivia... sometimes I almost feel guilty for how much we’re corrupting you.”

“Yeah, I don’t,” Merida snorted.

“It’s not a thing,” Casey smiled. “So if medicine doesn’t work out for me... I guess I’ll have to go all the way.”

“We need to come up with a porn name for you,” Merida insisted after emptying her own drink. “Not that I don’t expect your medical career to work out... just for fun.”

“This is fun,” Casey agreed, flagging down the poolside waiter for another round. 

Merida flashed a snide glance Casey’s way. “And to think, we nearly had to kidnap you to get you out of Boston,” she teased. “Tobias can be quite greedy and selfish.”

“Oh, go easy on him, Mer... you can’t blame him for being a little insecure. He knows damn well if I met you before meeting him or before you met Ethan, he would have some serious competition on his hands.”

“Competition?” Merida barked. “As if. I would have wiped the floor with that cocky bastard.”

As Casey and Merida happily downed their fresh drinks, they noticed Olivia was a s little more reserved.

“Liv, everything OK?” Merida asked.

“Yeah... I’m just wondering... would Bryce have had competition, too?”

“Of course!” Casey insisted. “Liv, you’re stunning! I would have fought the man off with a stick!”

“Mmm,” Merida nodded. “Of course, you’re our token straight friend, which may have given him a bit of an advantage.”

“Meh,” Casey waved dismissively. “I think everyone is a little bit bi. They just haven’t all admitted it yet.”

“It’s OK,” Merida assured. “Oliva, you would have been invited to the party even if you didn’t want to attend.”

The three women fell into a fit of giggles that only worsened as the afternoon progressed and the drinks kept coming. When evening approached, the tipsy trio made their way to their hotel room. Casey dove face-first into her bed, while Olivia collapsed into a chair beside the balcony. Marida poured glasses of water for herself and her friends. 

“What do you think the guys are doing right now?” Olivia asked.

“Downing their sorrows,” Casey mumbled with closed eyes. “They can’t stand being away from us.”

“She’s probably right,” Merida smiled. “They’re probably as inebriated as we are... but not having as much fun doing it.”

~~~~~

Back in Boston.

A forlorn Tobias sat hunched over the bar at Donahues, his usual chipper bravado missing in action. Ethan sat at his side looking... well... the same way he always looks. Nodding toward Reggie, he summoned two more drinks.

“What do you think they’re doing now?” Tobias asked.

“I can’t speak for everyone. But I’m sure Casey’s being approached by a ridiculously tan and toned specimen. They’re bright, attractive, personable, and she’s finally coming to her senses and realizing she  could do so much better than you.”

“You know, you’re an asshole,” Tobias smirked before sipping his Scotch. “I wouldn’t be so confident if I were you, buddy. Everyone knows Mer is so far out of your league. Maybe this is where she has her wake-up call, too.”

Ethan raised his glass with a shrug. “Here’s to our women,” he began. “May they never realize how pathetic we are.”

“Hear, hear,” Tobias laughed as their glasses clinked and they downed their drinks, quickly summonsing Reggie for refills. 

Sometime later, Bryce got off shift and headed directly to meet the guys. He was still in his scrubs, but with his bright smile and not a single hair out of place, he looked like he stepped off the cover of a magazine.

“Hey, Guys!” He said enthusiastically as he slipped onto a stool. “Looks like you’re a little ahead of me.”

“Yep! You have to keep up, young man,” Tobias grinned. “What’s your poison?”

“I need a minute to decide. Have either of you heard from the girls? I hope they’re having a good time.”

“We have not,” Ethan deadpanned. “And I hope they’re having an... adequate... time.”

“Adequate?” Bryce questioned. “Why?” 

Tobias wobbly turned toward his friend, placing a hand on his shoulder. “Bryce, just hope they don’t realize they could do much better than us.”

“What? Don’t be ridiculous,” Bryce laughed. “You’re not really worried, are you?”

Ethan and Tobias exchanged a devious look. “I don’t know,” Ethan sighed. “Our ladies are pretty damn special.”

“Sure as hell are,” Tobias agreed. “Brilliant, beautiful, kindhearted...”

“Witty!” Ethan interjected. “They can strike up a conversation with anyone and leave them spellbound. Merida did it to me.”

“Absolutely!” Tobias nodded. “And their flirtation game... damn, it rivals mine.”

Ethan turned to him with disgust. “Are you kidding me? Theirs is so much better than yours.”

“Yeah,” Bryce laughed nervously, “But they love us. Besides, Olivia is the shy one... she wouldn’t be flirting or anything like that.”

His friends' heads spun his way with incredulous grins on their faces. “Maybe once,” Tobias chuckled. “But she’s friends with our girls now.”

“Yep,” Ethan agreed. “She’s learning at the feet of the masters.”

“Right, right,” Bryce chuckled as images of his sweet Olivia filled his mind... his sweet Olivia, who had become so much more outgoing since...  “But they’re not there to party or anything. Right? By now, they’re probably back in the room, watching a movie or having tea.”

“Tea?” Tobias spat as his phone rang. “Oh, shit, it’s them now. Case is facetiming.” He quickly hit accept, and his face lit up as she appeared. “Hey, baby! Having fun?”

“Hey, T! Sure am, we’re at the pool party... I feel like I’m back in college again!”

“Oh really,” he joked. “Just remember, you’re an old married lady now.”

“What?” Casey giggled, “I don’t see a ring on this finger, bub!”  Her giggles broke into full-blown laughter, and her head tilted forward. Unable to control giggling, Tobias unsuccessfully attempted to get her attention.

“Babe... Babe... Casey... you there, hon?”

Merida picked up the phone instead. “Hey, T.  She’s fine. Maybe one Mai Tai too many, but she’s fine. I’m supervising.”

“Oh, Jesus Christ,” Ethan groaned. “Now I feel better.”

“Is that my grump? Let me see him.”

Ethan took the phone from Tobias’s hands. “You know I’m teasing, darling. Don’t you?”

“Of course I do. But I am cutting these girls off for the rest of the night.”

“Girls?” Bryce asked. “Where is Olivia?”

“Olivia?” Mer laughed, turning the phone toward Olivia. Downing the large mug of beer in her hand, Olivia was eating up the attention of her adoring crowd, yelling, “CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG!” She dropped her empty mug to the table, jumped on her chair, and yelled, “Woooooo!”.

Bryce’s eyes went wide. “Olivia?”

“You’re right,” Ethan replied without emotion. “She’s the demure one of the group.”

“Yeah, I better go,” Merida sighed. “I’ve got my hands full here. Remember, guys, we love you.”

Bryce grabbed the phone from Ethan’s hands.

“Merida, can I talk to....” but it went dead. 

Ethan and Tobias fought back smirks as Tobias consoled their friend. “Hey, you OK there, pal?”

“Yeah... I’m,” he faltered. “You’re not really worried .... are you?”

“No!” Tobias chuckled. “We’re just busting balls. I mean, look at the three of us. We’re freaking amazing!” When he turned to Ethan, he backtracked. “Well, two of us are amazing. If I were Ramsey, I would be worried.”

Ignoring him, Ethan turned to Bryce. “It’s fine, they’re just having fun.”

“I know,” Bryce fretted, “but... what have your girls done to Olivia?”

“I don’t know, buddy,” Tobias sneered. “But if Casey teaches her any other tricks while they’re gone... I assure you... you’ll be a very happy man when they return.”

“Hey,” Reggie grinned as he approached the men. “Looks like Lahela has joined the party. What can I get you, man?”

Lost in thought, he didn’t reply.

“Bryce?” Reggie asked as Tobias jumped in.

“You know what... bring him a Blue Hawaiian,” he said, throwing his arm over Bryce’s shoulder.

“Well, that’s fitting,” Ethan laughed.

“Just for the next ten minutes or so,” Tobias grinned. “We’ll get him back on track.”

@choicesficwriterscreations @openheartfanfics

[soncfseed]

Okay, time to get into a more detailed post of what Ethan’s Far Cry 6 verse is like! There’s gonna be some mild FC6 spoilers under the cut so proceed with caution if you haven’t played FC6 yet.

So, during the Seeds of Love (also peep that name... Seeds...) quest, one of Lorenzo’s children is an Eden’s Gate follower. You get taken on a mini bliss trip by smelling a bliss flower in an Eden’s Gate pot. Nearby there’s a note signed from The Seed Family. 

To me, this indicates two things. First: that the cult has grown internationally and their message has permeated outside of the US. Second: the cult is able to export things and is still in Montana, which leads me to believe they’ve set up shop there permanently making their own little town. In general, Far Cry 6 seems to sort of hit pause on the previous games. Pagan Min is being interviewed about Kyrati cacao, the Seeds are still in Montana, and obviously the events of New Dawn never happened. So, I would assume that the deputy never came to Hope County and tried to arrest Joseph -- they never liberated the area, the resistance there was clearly not successful in driving out the cult if it even arose at all in the FC6 world. 

My version of events to force Ethan into things is this: Ethan was born in Atlanta, Georgia in 1997 when the cult was not quite a twinkle in Joseph’s eye. While Joseph was in Georgia looking for his siblings, Ethan is conceived and born. Joseph never said he wasn’t his son, but wasn’t terribly direct about being Ethan’s father and was more concerned with reuniting his siblings and eventually gathering followers and heading to Montana. This is also when Joseph begins researching religion again every day at the library, where he meets Megan, Ethan’s mother. He eventually told her about the Voice, and although she didn’t really know how to react she did, by the time of her death, come to believe Joseph was indeed a prophet and told Ethan as much in his early childhood.

Then Megan got cancer and she tried using god, and faith, and prayer to heal herself. It failed, and she died when Ethan was about 7 years old. After that, Ethan was raised by his mother’s family for a few years. He was the black sheep, though, and even if he was a way to remember Megan he was also a symbol of her failures: the bastard son of some blasphemous preacher who heard voices and used to  Once Ethan started hearing more about Eden’s Gate, and a prophet named Joseph Seed, he knew that this was the very same Joseph Seed who his mother had told him about. Ethan wanted to track down his father. By the time he was 15, he had left home and joined Eden’s Gate to get closer to Joseph. With everything Ethan knew about him from his mother, it was obvious that he was related to him somehow. Joseph finally claimed Ethan as his son, but people already had their doubts by that point from the lack of public recognition or discussion of Ethan even existing up until that point.

Ethan was not included in the Book of Joseph because he didn’t fit the narrative Joseph & the cult wanted to portray to bring in followers. The Book of Joseph, in my mind, is not just Joseph’s perception but the perception of himself that he projects outwardly and sees as useful propaganda. Being a bit of an absent father to a child born out of wedlock doesn’t make Joseph look like a martyr or a prophet, and even if it’s relatable it isn’t exactly Biblical. The Book of Joseph also conveniently leaves out his wife, and killing his infant daughter; it isn’t good PR for getting people to join Eden’s Gate.

This is also why he doesn’t have a station as a herald like John, Jacob or Faith. He doesn’t really fit the narrative, nor does he have a close relationship with Joseph from years of distance and not knowing one another. He takes smaller roles, things where Ethan isn’t exactly treated as an heir. Similar to New Dawn, he’s thrust into leadership roles when nobody else is available and expected to function as an heir without really being treated by the cult or by Joseph as one.

This is how Ethan ends up being tasked with leading a mission trip to Yara. It’s important enough to be headed by a Seed, but not important enough to be headed by Jacob, John, Faith or Joseph. Ethan is caught in between feeling valued enough to be tasked with the trip, and understanding that he isn’t as important as his uncles or aunt, and feeling like the mission trip is a way to get rid of him. He is the unwanted child, the one who Joseph didn’t have a chance to kill off, that persists. He still feels like Joseph is too busy being The Father instead of his father. His late entry into the cult and distant relationship with Joseph leave him questioning his father’s role as a prophet. He doesn’t truly believe what the cult preaches; he pretends to in order to save face, but what he truly craves is the love and affection of his father in light of his mother’s absence. If Megan had never died, he would never have sought Joseph Seed out in such a manner. 

TLDR: Ethan joined Eden’s Gate as a teenager to find his father, is now taking on more roles to try and please him & fit in, and is leading a mission trip to Yara.

[little-moonbeam-666]

Jealous!Måneskin headcanons plsss

HERE WE GO!

The jealous members of Maneskin! (Thomas' is my favorite I think!)

Victoria

She would see someone approach you and gently make sure that it's known that you're with her

She would act as if nothing had happened, but she was little clingier than ususal.

Meaning she wouldn't leave your side for the rest of the night

But when you get home you couldn't help but notice she would be unusually quiet

You'd change into your pajamas and snuggle up in bed with her, pulling her close.

"What's wrong, amore?"

"I didn't like the way she was looking at you." she whispered, burying her face in your neck

Then it clicked... Vic was jealous

"Aw, baby! You know I would never leave you. I love you, my sweet girl. So damn much." you'd say, letting your fingers pet gently over her hair.

"I know. I just didn't like seeing her eye you up that way." she admitted.

"And how exactly was she eyeing me up?"

"The way I do!"

She'd lean up, pressing a few kisses against your jaw, trailing them to your lips.

"Hmmm, how about you let me show you just how much I love you, cucciola." you said, flipping her beneath you.

Let's just say that led to a very long, pleasurable night.

Damiano

He doesn't get jealous very easily... but there's always an exception

A random guy would approach you and try to make small talk.

Obviously you weren't interested. At all.

I mean come on... You were dating Damiano fucking David... Why would you want anyone else

Damiano watched the whole thing go down, knowing you were brushing off any advances the guy made at you

Until the guy reached out, running his hand down your arm.

Damiano could see the disgusted look on your face as you pulled your arm away.

Time to be the protective boyfriend and save you from the random drunk guy at the bar

He'd make his way over just in time to hear the guy asking you to go somewhere more private

Damiano immediately wrapped his arms around your waist and kissed you hard

When he pulled away from you, he just smirked at the guy.

"Make another pass at my girl and I'll knock your fucking lights out, buddy."

He'd smile and wrap his arm around your shoulders, leading you back to your group of friends.

"Thanks for that, baby." you'd say, leaning into his side.

"Oh just wait until we get home, dolcezza. I'm gonna remind you exactly who you belong to."

Thomas

Jealous Thomas would be needy as fuck

Like as soon as someone else even looks at you he would be all over you

Pulling you onto his lap, wrapping his arms around your waist

Lacing his fingers with yours

Kissing your neck, while staring down the person who dared to even look your way

You'd notice immediately what he was doing

"Thomas, amore mio, are you jealous?"

"Yes." he plainly state, pressing a kiss against your cheek and holding you tightly on his lap.

"Why?" you'd ask, giggling at your boyfriends over protectiveness

"Because you're mine. I want you all to myself."

"Well then it's a good thing you're the only one that I want."

The night would continue on, but he'd still be clingy

Like hours have gone by and he's still all over you

You can't help but think how sweet he is

And the result of having his hands all over you all night has led to you being incredibly horny

"Baby, do you wanna go home?" you'd ask.

He'd look at you confused, so you'd continue.

"I want you to make love to me, Thomas. Take me home."

His eyes would go wide but then he'd quickly bid goodbye to your friends before taking you home and ravishing you all night long

Ethan

Let me start by saying that Ethan is the most level headed of the group, so he wouldn't get jealous easily

He would see someone talking to you, and even though he may not like it, he knows you would never cheat on him

So he doesn't say anything

Or do anything

All night....

He acts like he normally acts. Nothing out of the ordinary.

Until you get home.

As soon as the door shuts and you're in the middle of toeing off your shoes. His voice is quiet.

"So who was he?"

He doesn't sound angry, but you can tell somethings off.

"Who?" you ask

"The guy you were talking to all night." he stated, hanging up his jacket, still not seeming angry. Just curious.

"Oh, that was just an old friend from school."

"He seemed a little too happy to see you again." he stated, raising a slightly accusatory eyebrow at you.

"Are... are you jealous?!" you squeaked, unable to believe that Ethan was actually capable of jealousy.

He was quick to answer.

"No!"

"You so are! Why don't you show me who I really belong to then, baby? Meet me in our room in five." you said, sashaying your hips as you walked away.

Let's just say you couldn't walk straight the next day

[darling-i-read-it]

If you have the time do you think maybe you could do a headcanon with the resident evil boys reacting to their s/o dying in their arms? That angsty stuff ya know?

Hi! I wasn’t sure exactly who you wanted so I just put everyone I’ve written before on there and also Carlos cause I wanted to lol. This is so sad but we’ve all gotta have our fair share of angst here and there. I was really motivated cause resident evil is my jam right now so it's extra long lol. I hope you enjoy!

Ethan Winters

- Ethan loved you more than he had ever loved anything ever

- and he knew that and that's why he told you to stay back while he figured out how to kill the Lords

- but Lady Dimitrescu had watched you and Ethan kill her daughters

- the first chance she got she scooped you up and her claws went right through your abdomen

- 'How does it feel Ethan Winters to lose the one you love?'

- she tossed you down and Ethan made quick work of killing her

- and then he had to walk over to you, still struggling for air

- he had already lost Mia, he couldn't...he wouldn't lose you too

- he held you in his arms, furiously taking out herbs and bandages but you just shook your head at him, promising him it wasn't his fault

- then you were limp in his arms

- all Ethan could do was sit there, shaking his head, tears streaming down his face

- he wished he had made longer work of that vampire, he wished he had made her suffer longer

- he held you to his chest and rocked you back and forth until you began to grow cold

Karl Heisenberg

- Heisenberg saw you fall on the other side of the field

- you weren't supposed to be out here, not when he was testing his machines

- a look of fear fell over his face, something rare for him

- and he ran over, quickly dismantling the machine who had caused you to fall and picked you up off the ground

- he kneeled down to hold you, tossing his glasses off in extreme worry

- 'Doll, are you alright?'

- he didn't think it was that serious, honestly but then he saw the long gash on your abdomen and the bleeding was so bad

- your eyes were still open but all you could do was gurgle out blood

- you were choking

- he shook his head but he didn't know what to do

- he had no background in saving people

- all Heisenberg could do was watch you fade out as he shook you, screaming for help, knowing he wouldn't get it

- he took that machine apart piece by piece after you died and didn't touch another one for months

- he knew he had killed you and he...he couldn't deal with that

- every piece of the factory seemed null and void now

Chris Redfield

- Chris knew he shouldn't have brought you along on this job but you had begged and he knew you were strong, he was just overprotective

- he made sure that the two of you were rarely together because if you were it would only distract you from the point

- he got the call in from the guy who was with you, just explaining that you were down and to send help

- God help any monsters who got in his way on his run to you

- when he arrived you were already down on the ground, your teammate by your side, holding your wounds down

- he ran over and shoved the teammate aside, picking you up himself and immediately running back to where they kept all the medic things

- 'Hold on for me darlin', he whispered, keeping his face straight so you couldn't see his worry

- you told him you loved him but he just shook his head, telling you not to say that, that you would be okay

- but by the time he got to the people who would save you, you were already gone

- Chris Redfield didn't cry

- but he did that day

- tears stained his face as he yelled at every member of his crew, especially the person who had been with you

- but really he blamed himself for not being there when you needed him

Leon Kennedy

- Leon S. Kennedy had saved so many damn people in his life and when he saw you struggling, he figured he could save you too

- you were his person, he had to save you it wasn't even a question

- but you were beyond saving by the time he got to you

- he killed the surrounding foes and turned to you

- 'Almost got you there didn't they,' he said and then turned to you and noticed that you were struggling

- he quickly rushed to your side, asking where it hurt, how he could help

- there was no spot for him to take you, the two of you were alone in this job

- you told him you loved him and he just shook his head, determined to help you get out of this one

- but you knew better than that

- he watched you die in his arms and just sat there for a second, it sinking in that he would never be able to hold you again when he let you go

- Leon Kennedy had saved the presidents daughter, he had saved Claire Redfield, he had saved so many people

- how the fuck couldn't he save the person he loved the most in this world?

Carlos Oliveira

- 'Okay beautiful let's get some dinn-'

- he was cut off coming into a room in the police station when he saw you laying on the ground, a zombie on top of you as you struggled

- the zombie hadn't stopped with just a bite

- he knew the second he saw you that you were already dead, there was no saving you from this one

- he quickly shot the zombie in the head and it fell over so he collapsed on the ground, scooping you up

- tears already were glistening his eyes

- Carlos yelled for Jill, for anyone but he knew that other than zombies, you were probably alone here

- he whispered sweet words to you as you went out and the second the light left your eyes he was angry

- he should have been there for you

- he should have left you with more ammo, more training

- he shouldn't have left you at all!

- he stabbed that zombie again. and again. and again. till it was unrecognizable

- he knew he had to keep going, he had to get out of Racoon City but knowing that you wouldn't be with him, he had a hard time mustering up the courage to even take one more step

[witchofthemidlands]

Headcanons: Ranking The Newer ARC Members Based On If Nick & Stephen Probably Would’ve Liked Them Or Not.

1) Captain Hilary James Becker

nick: (met him in canon)

stephen - 5/10: honestly a part of me wants to say that they would have been friends but it was pointed out to me in a really great conversation that they’re just ‘opposite ends of the middle name james specturm’ like i don’t think they’d hate each other but i don’t think they’d like each other either, because becker was hired to keep them from taking stupid risks & stephen would’ve drove him around the bend, but if lester ever let them have a tank they’d both be excited about it & bond over their love for weaponry.

2) Dr. Sarah Page

not to be a lesbian but ✨this image✨ exists of her & i just spent a good five minutes looking at the picture like 😍

nick: (met her in canon)

stephen - 10/10: he’d have loved sarah!absolutely would’ve flirted with her on the first day & probably gotten nowhere with that but i think they’d be really great friends & she’d have probably ended up sharing a big lab with him & nick. the three would’ve been a great team up.

3) Danny Quinn

nick - 3/10: i just don’t think that he would’ve liked him at all. honestly think he would get points from nick for loyalty & they’d probably bond over what it’s like to lose someone through an anomaly & i think nick would’ve been supportive to him after the whole ethan/patrick thing because those two are the official captains of a loved one went through the anomaly & went absolutely balls to the wall insane, but i don’t think they would’ve gotten a long at all, he’d have found him a bit too much.

stephen - 5/10: would actually hate him for stealing his style. like damn daniel, you got fashion tips from those files didnt you? i don’t really think they’d have much of an opinion of each other. stephen probably wouldn’t like him for arresting connor, how he acts like how owns the place & knows everything about everyone & everything because he read the files, but i feel like they’d get along, i mean danny looks like the kinda guy who’d be fun to drink with so they’d probably end up bonding over a drink.

4) Jess Parker

nick - 10/10: i think he would have really liked jess. he’d like the attitude she has towards lester & would just like how cheerful she is, seeing as it’s canon in the books that one of the reasons he took to connor the way he did was because he loved how connor was always happy to be there & the light he’d find in the situations they’d get themselves into & i think he’d feel similarly about jess.

stephen - 9/10: they would get on well, maybe he’d find her a bit much sometimes, but he would also love how she deals with lester for sure.

5) Philip Burton

nick - 5/10: honestly, i think nick would have liked him at first, fellow scientist & all, i feel like with all what we don’t know about the helen & philip situation could suggest that they all knew each other before the anomalies, but nick would have probably tried to kill him himself when he threatened the menagerie. its also my headcanon that helen probably slept with philip as well at some point, so he’d end up hating the guy.

stephen - 1/10: the one is because i often joke that if stephen had been alive in series 5 that he’d had blamed the end of the world on lester, but honestly he’d have probably disliked philip more than lester & definitely wouldn’t have trusted him.

6) Matt Anderson

nick - 7/10: i think he would’ve been alright with him, i feel like he’d have treated him like he treated becker, but honestly i always felt like matt was the best parts of nick & stephen which is why i like him a lot, so i feel like nick & matt would’ve gotten along quite well, the type to sit in the arc & compare notes on the team.

stephen - 3/10: he would not have trusted matt at all, he would have been suspicious about him & just would not have trusted him, he’d have worked with him just fine, but he’d absolutely would have been extremely sus about him.

7) Emily Merchant

✨this image of her exists✨ not to be a lesbian but oh my god, oh my god 😍

nick - 9/10: he would have loved emily. probably would have gotten a bit exasperated with how stubborn she is, but he would’ve loved her. she’s from the past, he would’ve been fascinated by her & they would have had the best & most interesting conversations on life.

stephen - 10/10: an incredibly resourceful woman who could probably beat him in a fight? he would have loved her.

[mm2305]

Hi Mil!!

I thought those Meet Cute asks were so much fun!! I am glad you did too!! If you have time I would like to request #35 for Ethan and Olivia.

Thank you!!

-Kate

Please drive!

Pairing : Ethan Ramsey x f!mc (Olivia Valentine) ¦¦ Words/Rating : 1.4k / T ¦¦ Warnings : mention of aggressive dogs ¦¦ Setting : Alternate Universe ¦¦

Prompt : They jump into your car breathless and tell you to keep driving

A/N : Hello!! I'm sorry this took so long but it's here now and I really hope you like this Kate! I certainly had lots of fun with this. Request from the meet cute prompt list (requests still open). Happy reading!

Disclaimer : all characters belong to the rightful owners. Also the Thomas Mendez headcanon here is by @jamespotterthefirst

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It was a warm, sunny afternoon, the sun high upon the sky, the air unusually filled with humidity. A dreadful combination, for sure. The street was mostly empty, the sight of another soul, rare during this time that the heat was at its fullest. Most people would be sensible enough to not go out at 103°F, but as much as he needed to be one of those people, Ethan was on borrowed time that day.

Being an intern at a hospital was probably the hardest - and let's be honest, shittiest- situation you could be in, right? The answer is a big fat no. At least that's what Ethan Ramsey, a doctor who at just his second year as an attending was at the top of his game and highly successful, would say. Why? Because someone has to deal with the interns and that brave soul has to deal with a lot. He speaks from experience.

Hence why this was the only moment he could slip in his schedule to take a break and get some decent coffee. His best friend Tobias, had suggested he go to the new place in the suburbs to get his caffeine fix. Of course, Ethan didn't believe him at first. A coffee shop in the suburbs? Sounds like one of Tobias' usual pranks. Still, his curiosity won and he drove all the way to the suburbs in search of the infamous coffee shop.

He would die before he admitted that Tobias was right, but that was some pretty good coffee. Content and somewhat more ready to go back, he began walking to his car. He could hear some barking in the distance, but that was to be expected. All those rich people around here sure would keep a dog or two. "Well maybe I should adopt the pup Thomas stole. I could use the company of someone not constantly talking" , he thought to himself as he unlocked the car.

Ethan quickly got in and immediately turned on the air conditioning. He sinked into his leather seat and closed his eyes for a minute, finding some relief from the unbearable heat. Suddenly he heard the door of the car open and close along with some very loud barking and he instinctively jumped in his seat, turning to look at the person who jumped in his car.

He didn't even get to utter a word before the woman turned to look at him with pleading eyes.

"Oh my God I'm so sorry for barging in but please please drive ! I'll explain everything I promise!"

Not even thinking about it, he started driving, while keeping an eye on the woman next to him, who was breathing heavily and looking out of the mirrors. It was then that he saw six big dogs running after his car and all that barking he had heard started making sense.

The dogs stopped following them after a few more minutes, their endurance making them seem understandably terrifying. Only then did she relax and take a deep breath.

"Thank you so much for this. I'm so sorry for jumping into your car.", she thanked him with a small smile.

"Uh… it's no problem. Glad I could help."

"I forgot to introduce myself. I'm Olivia Valentine, nice to meet you.", Olivia extended her hand towards him in a handshake.

Turning his eyes on her he briefly shook her hand. "Ethan Ramsey, it's…certainly interesting to meet you"

She laughed slightly at that, shaking her head and looking out of the window.

Ethan couldn't help but really notice how attractive she was. Her hair was gold blonde and tied back into a high ponytail, shaped in loose curls. Her eyes were big and green and her skin was spotless. Olivia wasn't wearing much makeup but what really stood out was her plump, bright red lips, perfectly contrasting with her fair skin. She was dressed in a simple, professional, dark blue , form-fitting dress with black high heels that accentuated her long legs. She was wearing a silver, elegant wrist watch and in her lap rested a black briefcase.

"Would it be okay if I asked what just happened to you, Miss Valentine?", the urge to solve mysteries whether it was regarding medicine or this beautiful woman, propelled him towards asking her this question. Besides she just came out of nowhere, I have a right I ask her. Right?

"Please call me Olivia."

"Only if you call me Ethan"

She grinned and nodded. "Deal"

"So, Ethan , I am a real estate agent. I had an appointment with a client to show him a villa that was for sale but I had been waiting outside the house for thirty minutes and he hadn't shown up. And of course, he didn't even call to let me know that he wouldn't come, instead of letting me roast in the sun. Anyways, I decided to leave and I walked a couple of blocks down the street in hopes of getting a cab. You can guess how well that went in this time and area, so I called a colleague to come pick me up. I was waiting for her to come, when two of these huge ass dogs escaped their homes, thinking I was an intruder just because I passed by and began coming closer, teeth bared and all. Since I am so lucky today, somehow more dogs gathered so I panicked and ran. They started chasing me… and then Olivia met Ethan", she finished her story with a dry chuckle.

Ethan was left speechless. His surprise must have been written all across his face because next thing he knew she was bursting into laughter.

"I'm-I'm sorry… it's just--that you should see your face", she said in between laughing.

"I mean. Wow. And all because of that jerk of a client."

"Definitely a jerk and not only because of that. He's a plastic surgeon and he's all about how successful he is or some shit. "I'm Dr. Thorne and I'm one of the leading plastic surgeons in Massachusetts." As if I give a damn. ", she rolled her eyes hard.

"Dr. Thorne you said? Ugh he's one of the worst of his kind"

"You know him?!"

"Yeah unfortunately. He works in Edenbrook, as do I. I'm a doctor."

"Ohh interesting! Let me guess. Internal medicine?"

"Actually… yes. How did you guess?", he turned to give her a surprised look.

"You previously said of his kind. I know enough about doctors that one working in internal medicine isn't particularly…fond of surgeons. Am I right?", she asked giddily.

Ethan chucked at that. "Yes, you are. Mostly at least"

"Nailed it."

Valentine. Where had he heard that name though…?

"You work in the big firm downtown don't you?" , he stated rather than asked after a moment of silence.

"I was wondering when you would figure it out Dr. Ramsey.", Olivia teased him, smirking.

"I am a diagnostician Ms. Valentine. I notice things. And your firm is difficult to miss"

"Technically not mine. My father owns the business."

"So it's safe to assume, your mother is the doctor?"

"Bravo, Doctor. Yes indeed. She works at Mass Kenmore."

"I see… So. Want me to give you a lift? We're already in the car and your work is on my way.", he raised an eyebrow expectantly.

"Sure! Thanks Ethan", she replied, grinning widely.

They spent the rest of the way comfortably talking to each other, both genuinely enjoying each other's company. For someone who was so talkative and gregarious, Ethan found himself interested in anything Olivia had to say. She was smart and confident, but in the most charming way possible. At last they reached the firm and Ethan pulled over.

Both turned to look at each other and started talking simultaneously

"Olivia--"

"I --"

"Ladies first.", he motioned for her to say what she wanted.

"Right. Thank you once again Ethan, both for the save and the ride. It was really nice to meet you.", her hand reached and squeezed his arm.

"You're very welcome, Olivia. I uh… wanted to ask…only if you want to of course… can I have your number?". He was quite visibly stuttering, but he tried to hide it behind a cough.

Olivia looked him in the eyes, clearly seeing through him and smiled. "Yeah, absolutely. Can I have yours too?"

He smiled back at her. "Yes of course"

They exchanged cards and after saying goodbye, Olivia got out of the car and walked back into the office. Just as she sat down at her desk she received a text message.

Ethan : Meet me this Saturday at 8, in "Gaston's Bistro"?

Olivia : I'll be there :)

Ethan : Perfect :D

She put her phone away and got down to work, smiling all the way, already excited for her date this weekend.

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[utterlyinevitable]

imagine this

Ethan Ramsey and MC BOTH inhale the mitotoxin and Ethan has a death scare...angsty

why u always killing these characters ??? 🤣

sinking suspicion that my hc’s are just less detailed fics 🤔 am i do headcanons right??? 

Ethan Inhales the Mitotoxin

Ethan stared at MC through the window. It was just the two of them left. 

The two more-than-colleagues shared the same look of utter despair and heartache. 

“Can I stay with you tonight?” he asked.  MC was grateful yet skeptical, “They won’t need you in the lab?”  “I can be of more use here.” 

Ethan wouldn’t tell her that his mind wouldn’t be able to focus - he was fighting the whole day between his professionalism and his feelings for the resident. At the forefront of his desires was running to her side and wishing he could take all her pain away. Absolve it all. 

He threw on the hazmat suit and made his way to her as quickly as possible. There was no second to waste. 

They talked. 

They shared regrets. 

They finally spoke their true feelings in such small words in the room that’s taken almost everything from them. It was only a matter of time before he lost her too.

Ethan climbed into bed and held her as best he could in the bulky hazmat suit. 

And she tried not to cry as she told him she wished she could kiss him one last time. That she could count every time their lips met in the most perfect synchronization on one hand. That she’d give anything to have him one more time. Even if that one thing was her life. She wanted to love him and have that love, unashamed, returned for once. [i’m not crying as i write this line nope no i’m not] 

Holding her in the cramped twin-sized bed. Not being able to feel the warmth of her skin against his. Ethan wanted all of that as well. He wanted her and more. 

The way she was looking up at him, fragile and broken and yet still the most beautiful woman he’s ever seen, he made a decision. 

He’d be damned if these were their last moments together. 

Against all rationality, Ethan removed his helmet. 

“No! What’re you doing? Are you stupid?” MC freaked out through her compressed breaths. 

She tried to pull away from him, to put as much distance between their bodies as she could.  

Ethan pulled her closer; “Yes. But I’m not letting you go.” 

They stared at one another for a moment. She couldn’t believe he was jumping into the unknown, risking every thing he has worked his entire life for. Risking it all for a few moments with her. 

She tentatively raised her hand up, wanting so badly to cup his face. To feel the coarse stubble against her skin. 

But she knew she couldn’t. The toxin was all over her and he was already at risk of inhalation. 

Ethan saw the hesitation as her hand froze in midair. He guided her palm to his cheek. 

Their eyes locked on contact. 

Neither closed their eyes as they savored the feeling. They wanted to see - to catalog and remember - every moment of this. For as long as they had left.  

And she started to cry the second his warmth met her palm. 

The tears slowly fell down her tired, so tired, features. 

Ethan reached out to catch them on his thickly gloved hand. His thumbs on the apples of her cheeks and fingers cradling the back of her head. 

He swallowed.

His ocean eyes searched her. 

And as he looked he realized he was holding his whole world in his hands. 

So Ethan pulled her closer to him. He trailed one of his hands down to her waist and slipped it around the small of her back. He needed her closer. 

The whole time MC’s fingers twirled and grasped the strands of his hair, reveling in the feeling of the soft locks of the man she loved. Her other hand finding home on his chest, counting the faint thumps of his heart. 

And yet she wasn’t close enough for Ethan’s liking. 

In one failsafe movement, he swept to press his lips to hers. 

He kissed her. 

He kissed her in the middle of the apocalypse - in the middle of Pompeii as Vesuvius’ ash rolled closer and closer.

It didn’t matter. The toxin didn’t matter. None of it mattered because he had her.  

If she was fading he would follow. 

As much as Ethan Ramsey hated Romeo & Juliet, he never identified with the star-crossed lovers more. 

He would follow her into the dark. 

She broke them apart with a heavy gasp, needing air all too soon. 

He let her take the deepest breaths; his kisses making up for lost time at her nose, her cheeks, her forehead, and the spot under her ear in the meantime. 

And they kissed some more. 

They held one another all night as MC snuggled up against him. Her forehead pressed against the warmth of his cheek, keeping them connected. 

There wasn’t a single second since he took the mask off that they weren’t skin to skin. 

As they lay there, the humming of the machines drowning out serenity, Ethan began to feel the side effects of his irrationality settling in. 

MC could hear the panic in the irregular beating of his heart. 

“Regretting your stupid decision?”  “I could never regret time spent with you,” he told her honestly. 

She rambled on about how he shouldn’t have done it, no matter what. That this wasn’t worth the both of them dying. 

Ethan begged to differ. 

But now wasn’t the time to tell her he’s irrevocably in love with her. That, hidden in his earlier regrets is that he may never get the chance to tell her. 

With every certain fiber left in his failing body Ethan asserted, “We’re not going to die.”  “Ethan... I’ve come to terms with it. I’m okay.”  

She leaned over and kissed him again. It was languid, slow and lingering, spilling every unsaid feeling into the kiss as if they had all the time in the world to work through their issues.  

And in the distance she could hear Sienna screaming. 

“Doctor Ramsey! What are you doing!?” 

The pair didn’t break away quick enough to notice the tiny resident at the window. 

Quicker than lightening Sienna searched around for a spare suit while paging June and Baz to make their way upstairs. 

“Great you’re together.” Sienna let a small congratulatory remark slip before the fire in her eyes took hold. She turned fully to Ethan, making certain he saw deep into her eyes, “What the hell! Do you have a death wish? I cannot lose another friend tonight.” 

And the weight of what he’s done finally came to fruition. 

Ethan didn’t care. He was selfish. He didn’t say goodbye to anyone who could be affected by his impulsive decisions. He didn’t patch things up with his dad before he’d gone. 

“Take off your suit. I’m going to take your vitals,” Sienna commanded.

June and Baz arrived. Both were a little surprised Ethan would do something so bold, though June was less shocked than Baz. Neither dared to ask why their boss would do something so irresponsible. The intention was staring them right in the face. 

Right in the way MC and Ethan kept in contact. 

Even as he stripped off the suit she had her hand on his back. As Sienna took his vitals his fingers laced with hers. As he explained his symptoms and MC began to fade, he wrapped an arm around her and tucked her safely against his chest. 

With jaws on the floor the doctors made their way back down to the lab to tell everyone they had another patient. 

Ethan and MC allowed themselves the small whispers and pillow talk of finally getting to spend the night together. 

After all these months they could be happy together. They could forget everything except for their bodies pressed firmly against one another, their arms clasped behind the others back. The feeling of the others shallow breaths and drumming heart lulling them to sleep. 

He ran his fingers through her hair, loosing himself in the sensations he’s had dreams about for the better part of the last year. He placed a kiss to to top of her head, letting it linger. Letting her natural smell engulf him. 

No matter what happens he wants to remember every aspect of her. 

And eventually, Ethan let himself sleep. 

He was jolted awake by a tightening in his chest and need to vomit. He leaned over the bed and let the bile fall into the wastebasket. Then he sent an ‘911’ message on his pager. 

MC rubbed her eyes awake, terrified as he keeled over onto the floor. Whatever strength was left in her body she exerted to get herself to him. She sat next to him and rubbed his back, whispering sweet nothings of “It’ll be alright. It’ll pass.”  

The despondent look he gave her sent a chill down her spine. 

No. 

He reached out and touched her face one last time. 

If he wasn’t gasping for air he would have said the words. 

Ethan didn’t need to say them, she felt them in the blue of his irises and the way the lines of his face smoothed out. He was slipping through her fingertips and yet he never looked so sure, so serene. 

Then he collapsed. 

And MC cried. She cried so much she couldn’t see through her tears as she tried to check his vitals - checking for breaths, and mustering her strength to roll him on his side. 

And soon enough the team was suited up. 

Tobias, June, Baz and Aurora entered the isolation room. Aurora held MC back as the other three lifted Ethan onto a gurney. 

They plugged him with oxygen. 

And as they wheeled him away June shared a sorrowful look with the forlorn resident.  

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[aquariusshadow]

Live!Blogging Legacies s3x11

Helloooooooo friends, how’s our methan legacies deprivation going? Two weeks....two weeks...but it's time for another Legacies Live!Blog! Ngl I did miss doing these ahaha

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well then we got some old timey shit going on here, im into it

is this clarke

this better be clarke

i better be remembering properly

that looks like an ascendant

HAH I WAS RIGHT IM NOT AN IDIOT

hi clarke

yep ascendant...artifact...whatever

damn, 4hrs of sleep (maybe) and im doin good with the brain thing

awww look at hope reassuring cleo

this is sweet

"just be natural" stares intensely

Jed no

do not introduce time travel in this

kaleb to cleo: a special someone

me: .....hope? (excuse my cleope heart)

landon would be a great history major

Kai parker???

did hope just say kai

i really like how theyre writing handon

METHAN

BBIES

I MISSED YOU

"i was worried our days of superhero teamwork would be over"

gdi lizzie

platonic!mizzie only plz

ethan come back

really thats all we're gonna see of josie/hope/landon interaction one look

wade!!!! hiiiiiiii where tf have you been

i can see josie larping actually

"im not here to bust up your bromance" ahaha

im really impressed finch stayed by herself with this werewolf secret for so long

ok lizzie calm down

like a majority of werewolf first-tunes are almost always accidental

OH MY GOD LANDON

HIS NECROMANCER MIMICKRY IS ON POINT

i love him ahahahaha

this is amazing

i love him

look at how he's making her laugh

this is so fucking cute

this is what i wanted with handon oh my gooooood

rip necromancer i guess

one of the few reasons why i enjoyed his character was he played gideon in season 3 of reign

any reign fans reading this hmu (seriously hmu lmao)

oh god wtf is that

ew dont eat the

ok

fine

be disgusting idc

oooooooo is this how dark!josie comes back

yep

ok thats clever

josies confronting her inner demons head on

i like this

"head-dive" it has a name now

jesus finch

you really dont know the whole story

oooo kaylee heightened dark!josies voice a little bit

i like that

im getting some katherine pierce vibes??? at least with her mannerisms

maaaaaaan i like how theyre showing us finch's backstory

"we"

sigh im really not surprised she yeeted him back into reality

but at least he can help heal her???

landon and josie interaction to save hope??? yes plz

oh god this isnt gonna go well with ethan going alone is it

lizzie

good lord

idk this is a bit much for her

i get shes trying to look out for josie

but yikes

"special candies"

awwwwww poor finch

this poor girl

my headcanon is that josies gonna become a badass DnD player after this episode

awww kaleb's attempt at flirting is pretty adorable

aka be yourself kaleb thats all

i really am getting katherine v elena vibes with josie and dark!josie (i really hope thats not an insult to katherine lmao)

wade you sweet simple fool you tried

so josie ended up taking her magic back to save hope...imma just leave it at that

cmon wade

be the fairy guardian you were meant to

oh ok

yeaaaaaaaa landon save your girl!!!

awwwwwwww

finally saw landon saving hope

such handon progression im so happy

awwww kaleb wanted to protect cleo

thats really sweet

idk why im not as into these two as a couple compared to some of the other ships BUT i am liking them more as the episodes go by!

handon communication! handon communication!

hope's starting to trust him yaaaaaay

hope's playing dnd

yessssssss

never thought i'd say this but handon is starting to reach couple goals for me

hey mg...ethan kinda...went off by himself...

so, lizzie supports the methaness going on

thats all im taking away from this scene

this is what i mean when i say i like platonic!mizzie

mg is so sweeeeeeeeeet i love him

WHO TF HURT ETHAN

WHO DO I GOTTA HURT BACK

hosie convo! i repeat hosie convo! finally

man i really want josie to go play dnd

no........nooooooooo dont tell me landon isnt landon

see heres my thing

if the landon we've been seeing this entire time wasnt landon

then all that handon development we finally got

asjdfahlsdfjaskldfasdkf

that being said i do find this incredibly interesting

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I swear these episodes are just higher in quality! So, if Landon isn’t Landon, then what does that mean for all the positive Handon progression the past few episodes since Landon’s been back? Also, Methan how I’ve missed you.

[urlocalbunny]

Headcanons of the boys with a pregnant mc??

Aaron:

1/3 that Knows What Might Be Happening Before You Do™ "Holy shit, you're pregnant?" he yelps out of nowhere. Truth is, you don't know wtf he's talking about.

Sniffs the air around you and then gets those dog zoomies in human form. He just runs around the house and comes back into the parlor, looking at you and saying "I'm going to be a fucking father!"

When he calms down and sits, you ask him wtf is going on and he says "I can smell your hormones and you're pregnant?"

You might pass out but no, not with the Super Dad™ looking out for you.

After you actually confirm with a very disgusted Ethan saying something like "ew you both fucked" and leaving, he's going to be overprotective of you.

No running down the stairs. No hard training, just jogs. Not too much. No swords, missy! No running in the hallways, no beer, no to staying in cold baths like you do, no getting sick, eating is a MUST and he's going to play with you in wolf form so you're never down, no stress too, if you want some space, your man's got you, he'll go do something. You're going to have to eat even if you're a chalice.

He will hunt more and eat animals to save your blood and just drink to complete his diet. He might even give you some of his blood once a month.

Gets super excited when the baby moves. Loves them because they kick Ivan's head when he tries to listen to your tummy.

When you're about to give birth he also senses first. Whimpers like a puppy and scoops you up, taking you to the room and doing as planned. Won't leave your side and when he sees your baby's first ever blink, he cries quietly. Will thank you so much.

He's also going to put up the cutest room of all of them. There will be some flowers, nice windows and many fur comfy sheets and the crib is bigger than him. No one knows why.

Raphael:

He is 2/3 that Knows What Might Be Happening Before You Do™. He was under the suspicion that something in your body was changing. He just couldn't put his finger on it.

But then in one night where you both were sleeping together he turned his face upwards and he started to think about how calm the last days had been. His hand caressed your waist lovingly to soothe you when you stirred a little in bed. Your shirt rode up and he was a little weirded out by how your skin seemed thin to the touch.

Almost as if your belly was growing. In fact, he noticed that it was, but it was so little...

He sat up with his back straight like the wall and gasped.

He decided to try and find out without alarming you, but his mind was already making scenarios where your baby would grow up to be an amazing adult and you'd love a great life together.

Is super careful with you, makes sure you're always lively and he chooses some of the softest fabrics for the baby. Sometimes he smiles to himself and closes his hand where the baby moved.

Gets scared when the baby makes weird shapes on your tummy and then giggles. They're so energetic and seem healthy!

When he sleeps, he is always looking forward to meeting his kid again and again, even if they still didn't make it to the world.

Will read you so much poetry and try to make you relax as much as you can.

Will be silent during the birth. Just whispering how proud he is, a wavering smile on his face and tears of pure joy staining his cheeks. When he feels the baby's face, he will gasp. They're so small and delicate. Even if he could see, he could never capture with him brushes how pretty his child was.

Beliath:

3/3 that Knows What Might Be Happening Before You Do.™ He's a demon, for God's sake! (ba doom tssss)

I headcanon that Beliath can feel people's life energy because if demons such as him and Leandra don't know which prey is worth all the power usage and time, life would turn dangerous. It's a basic power to a demon: feel how many people there are in a place by their energy. He will sense your mood swings and most importantly, he will sense a change in your energy.

He's going to be final about it when he gets in the kitchen after helping with the garden to find you sitting with a very creeped out Aaron in the kitchen, eating a beef bigger than your head like your life depended on it even if you had no urges to eat anymore.

He would try to feel for your energy and then he'd sense something like a second presence.

He'd frown deeply. "Aaron, come closer to me." He'd say looking at the floor. "I don't know what's happening to them. They just said to bring meat back home and forced me to make this stew." He said.

"I wash hoongry!" They snarled with their mouth full. Beliath, however, was paler than usual. When Aaron moved, the presence didn't fade. It was inside of his s/o.

You'll be the prettiest pregnant in the world. You'll get jewelry, healthy meals, massages, pedicure, hair care, pretty clothes and he'll even do your makeup when he senses you're close to give birth. He's always making sure you're treated like royalty and you'll never have to stretch your arm out fully.

He'll be very loving and protective. After you give birth he'll find you to be the prettiest person he's ever seen and that's final.

When you're giving birth he's going to be your biggest motivation. He will squeeze you hand and tell you to keep going. Someone like you can pull this off without any doubt.

He doesn't cry much, just a few tears. He's just too mesmerized to ever focus on crying. Your baby is the epitome of beauty. And they smile often. He laughs at their gums.

Vladimir:

Part 1/2 of the Clueless Until Something Weird and Fucking Scary Happens™ crew.

He'll only realize when your tummy is growing. He will think you're getting chubby and will blush: you'd look so cute and soft.

but then, in one of these nights where he rests his head on your tummy, it kicks his face!

The both of you will tell almost like the "Stop! I couldda dropped my croissant!" Dude. Now he thinks you're sick!

That is until Ethan, with his eyes bigger than saucers bc he was deceived with the story that you have a strange illness comes to check up on you and then he just rolls his eyes and deadpans, "So, you've knocked MC up and now you want to say they're sick?"

After that, he is even more worried. Looks at himself in the mirror every day for the next nine months thinking that he is going to be a god-damned father. But doesn't let up. Your kid will have a room ready in five days. Seeing him and Beliath putting a crib together is priceless. Bel gets his head smacked with his part of the wood pieces often.

"love, there's paint on your hair. Over here." He's never going to be composed. He's blushing and rushing to the bathroom to clean it.

When the baby is about to come into the world, he's going to ball his eyes out. More than the baby. The baby might give him a stank face for stealing his moment.

Ethan:

Sole member of the group "I Knew From The Start But I Just Denied It Because How Tf Will A Crazy Bastard Like Me Help My Pregnant Partner Raise a Whole Entirety Of a Child?"

He's trying his best to brace himself to be a father. But he just can't imagine not making it harder for you. How was he supposed to teach a kid how to live if he wasn't prepared to go on after 80 years himself?

One day after lost sleep, he will look at himself in the mirror thinking he's just that war doctor that isn't mentality stable. But then it will click: he IS the war doctor. He had made many difficult choices and saw life fade in front of him. He always made the difficult choices. Always chose who was going to live. And he was going to do it again. His child would fucking live. And he was going to make sure of that.

Getting exercise just the right amount, eating right, waking up early and resting early under Ethan's supportive and determined gaze, that's how it would be. Even if he was always taking care of you, he was bracing himself for the possibilities, for be your doctor when you gave birth, for watching over the baby. That's all he could do as he didn't know how to be more than a friend to your baby. If your baby ever loved him.

But as the months ran long and short at the same time, he watched your every gesture. The way you talked to the baby. The way you'd caress and poke your tummy lightly creating little rhythms when you sang. The way you'd mock him when you didn't realize he was there and say he was such a worried and careful father. Saying things the baby would love about him.

Was it possible that even without him seeing a good father on himself, you were actually... Excited?

After that, he went softer still. He'd be mesmerized when the baby moved, when he imagined their tiny hands closed in fists as they ran through the house. Would they be a troublemaker? They could definitely get along. He found himself closer to you, earning and waiting to see what they could do. How they'd change his perception of things even more.

He might not know what he wants for your baby, but he knows what he doesn't want for them and you're definitely with him in this. That's a start, right?

The kind of dad to say the kid's tummy looks like a watermelon. Scares you saying he's giving him some ugly name. Laughs a lot at you and says he's so happy.

Ivan:

Part 2/2 of Clueless Until Something Weird and Fucking Scary Happens™ crew.

You see, you know when there are these pregnant women that have really small tummies and then the baby suddenly punches some room for themselves out of nOWHERE and grow? That was it.

He was like "aww look at ur tummy hehehe kiss kiss cute!"

But then in one of these days, he rests his head on your tummy and the baby is like "oof get off of me I'm sWEATING" and then they jAB HIS HEAD.

He jumps up so high and out the bed that you would mistake him for a long ass frog. He points at your tummy and yells "ETHAAAAAAN"

Ethan isn't even rude seeing how terrified he is. Aaron barges in and then suddenly is full of grow ass men watching your man-kicking tummy. Turns out you were just pregnant. Maybe he'll try yahoo answers? Goooosh, this is hard.

When he collects his thoughts, will be more responsible, shy and clingy. He planned this once in his life before, so he's very happy that this happened now that he's sure of you. You put up with him this whole time, he is sure you're gonna be a good mommy too.

With every single piece of clothing the others bring, he gets more and more excited. Confides in Aaron a lot and when he tells the wolf that he can be the godfather, he literally howls and lifts him up. They might cry in the woods.

He is very soft and he will give you support when it's time for the birth. He just won't cry like Vlad bc after the baby cries and Ethan sighs blissfully he passes out in relief. Ethan groans. But takes care of him anyways. He suddenly got softer after the announcement. He seemed to bond with Ivan... But dONT TELL HIM THAT.

He's also going to make u listen to classical music for your child to be born Smart™ and a Person Of Culture™.

Actually very serious and emotional. Vladimir could never with all his crying.

Your kid is gonna grow up very sweet, but not the type to sit down and be bullied or dismissed bc they'll only know that from their father honestly. I stan your baby

[kiara-36]

headcanon for Landry confronting MC about their relationship with Ethan

This is the third part, so check out the other one before reading this.

Part one, Part two

My masterlist

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•When the office door opened, MC looked at it, expecting, hoping, to see their boyfriend coming in, but unfortunately they were wrong.

• “What are you doing here Landry?” they said, “ I am here to work, but you probably can’t understand the concept since you are here only because you slept with your boss” Landry responded.

• “You know it is not like that” “It is, otherwise why would all the hospital think that you are an incompetent doctor!”

��Usually MC would have a come back ready , but not that day, that day they were so overwhelmed, stressed out and tired that all they could do was crying

•In that moment Ethan entered the room, he didn’t understand what was happening but when he saw the crying face of his partner he felt anger growing inside him

• he walked forward to Landry and, with eyes full of rage,he punched him, causing Landry to fall to the ground. Then Ethan turned to MC, asking them what had happened, and, as they explained the situation, he became even angrier

•But this time Ethan decided to control himself, for the sake of his and MC’s reputation.

• “Dr. Olsen, did you think that slut-shaming another member of the diagnostic team would have lead to something? Did you think that it would have helped you in any way?” Ethan growled.

• “Dr. Ramse-”  Landry blurted out “Effective immediately, Dr. Olsen: I’m terminating your position” Ethan said, cutting him off.

• “what?.. wait, you can’t do that, Leland Bloom will be furious” “I don’t give a damn about Leland” Ethan responded “Now get out of here!”

•Landry rushed out, frightened by Ethan’s infuriated voice. Now, there were only Ethan and MC in the office

•Ethan turned around to lock MC's eyes, still red from crying: that saddened him

•He wanted to comfort MC, so he hugged them and kissed them on the forehead.

• “Now let’s get home” Ethan said after a long hug.

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I hope you enjoyed it, as usual feedbacks are really appreciated.

Tag: @queencarb

[sevenincubistolemyheart]

I saw you call yourself a teen wolf slut so with that in mind who is your favorite/least favorite teen wolf character and why👀😏

Gasp!

You...ooh this is so hard!!

Teen Wolf is actually my favorite show of all time so...I can't help myself I'm doing top 3 favorites and top 3 least IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER i can't choose between my 3 loves-

Okay, here we go! Hope this is to your liking anon!

Favorites:

Stiles Stillinski(but especially Void):

Ohhh Stiles. Dylan O'Brien is still my favorite actor of all time to this day for this role. The one actor I follow and watch every movie he's in. What a genius. I'm serious.

His body language? Spot on. Expressions? Memorable as heck. Line delivery? Amazing. Acting ability? Astronomical.

Normal Stiles already had such a fucking RANGE; from sarcastic and funny to depressed to excitable to hateful. Ugh. Brilliant. And then Void came in and it was like something in him literally snapped. I've still never seen anything like it. He looks so...so at home in his role as Void. Part of what makes him unnerving as shit in my opinion.

Truly masterful.

...and yet another one to owe my fear kink to after Scream and Billy Loomis. Blame him for Void being in Tainting Purity. Important to note that although his name is Void and he uses Dylan O'Brien as a face claim he actually isn't the one from the show. He's still his own character. I just...had to use Dylan because he was so perfect. 😅

Allison Argent:

I made the tough decision to replace Aidens spot on this list with my girl. She's...so me it hurts. Her monologue about not wanting to weak is still something I'll go watch when I feel lost. All the female characters of this show helped shape a lil piece of who I am but she had the biggest relatability at first and damn did it stick. Right to the very end. 😭

Issac Lahey:

So...Issac was a BIG self comfort for me. Nearly every character in this show can and is that for me but him especially shhh. Isaac's story deeply touched me with his father. I went through some stuff as you guys may have seen earlier today although not physical or half as intense as Issacs. It still served as this reminder that I wasn't alone.

And seeing him develop connections, slowly open up, fight through his trauma to create HIS family?

Damn. That shit got me.

Also; I may have been desperate to be ler'd and/or absolutely reamed by him and Aiden since that one scene in the track field. Curse my love of Bully/Bullied but sign me tf up- give me a protective, friend Issac which Aiden picks up on and then wants her for himself. Competition endues until eventual threesome at Readers behest.

Least Favorite(This kinda turned into a second fave list whoops-)

Little note that I find something to like in nearly every character so even the people here have good in some regard!

Gerard:

Ah Gerard. There from the beginning there to the end. What a crafty son of a gun...lucky for us Scott was craftier and had his friends to back him up hn?

His first use with the Kanima was probably my favorite but he was just...so evil ugh. And not in the good way. It was between him and Monroe and he won out since he was around so much longer.

Peter:

...Peter is that guy everyone hates to love but does anyway XD. His dry sarcasm and banter with Stiles are iconic- BUT his morals are grey as shitttttt. And he's selfish as Hell. Which I mean, fair. But still.

Theo:

Okay I needed to get my evil sadist baby on the list somehow okay-!? I fear him and I love that he makes me scared and feeds my filthy fear kink gonna be honest. Was in love from the very first twist scene with his "parents". Need to be wrecked by him and Void yesterday!

...maybe I have a lil bit of a villain threesome need with this show whoops 🤷‍♀️

Honorable mention to Ducalion because Gideon Emery is another fave of mine(him, Cody(Theo) and Tyler(Derek) actually just worked together on FF7 remake fun fact. I screamed and was so proud they all killed it!) And his ark was AMAZING. That ending with Scott? PLEASE.

Same to Ethan, and more begrudgingly Jackson. Didn't really earn it thanks to the lack of screen time but I'll give it to 'im cause of Ethan and that iconic scene from the last season as well as their chemistry.

Let's see...oh Derek and Lydia of course. Scott as well as Melissa. Gods, Chris too...too many good characters like I said 🤣.

...Also Danny. My baby boy deserved better. Much as I loved my 2nd gay baby Corey Danny was the OG and we never got any explanation for why he knew about supes. I headcanon that he's a Seer personally!

Okay this got super long! Hope you like it dear anon like I said it's my fave show so fee free to ask anything you like! I have tons of fandoms guys so chat me up about Miraculous Ladybug, Undertale, Xenoblade Chronicles 1 and 2(haven't finished 1 yet but have 2), Scream(horror in general), and Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts and Zelda games! Oh and The World Ends With You of course!

Okay have a great day y'all gonna doze but I'll answer everything when I'm back up at 7!

I'm looking forward to lots of asks hopefully~

[atlas-of-a-human-soul]

idk if you’re still doing headcanons but if you are can you do one with ethan dating a tall girl that is basically his height. thank youuuu

- Ethan absolutely loved everything about her, never once having a remark on her height because he knew she got shit for it from a lot of people and especially his fans.

- "Wait, why aren't you in those heels you squealed about yesterday?!"

- Once he realizes she's not wearing them so he wouldn't be shorter than her, he clears his throat and uses his cool voice.

"Put on those heels because being a few inches shorter for a night won't bruise my ego. Y/N I fucking love it when you wear heels."

- His clothes are always a bit big on her even if the length matches her, but it took her a long time to start wearing his clothes because she felt self conscious about it.

"There's always photos and stuff about the girl being fucking tiny and her boyfriend's clothes being five sizes too big and it just feels like I'm cheated out of it."

- But damn it, Ethan loves when he sees how his clothes look on her especially because they smell of her after and he adores having her scent cling to him.

- She's never turned back at the amusement parks, able to go on every ride with her man.

- He still likes to carry her around even if she claims she might be too heavy because "height adds onto the weight" which he finds ridiculous.

- "I love your legs so much."

- Ethan is big on kissing every inch of her legs, all the way up her thighs.

- Absolutely loses it when she has thigh high boots on and usually needs to deal with a hard on the entire time.

- Loves to put on her stockings for her before eating her out, because "I was in the neighborhood."

- Kissing her never makes his neck or back hurt from hunching all the time.

- Loves brushing his nose against hers before pecking her lips.

- He will fight anyone who has something to say about her.

Tags: @xalayx @dolandolll @godlydolans @dolanstwintuesday @ethanhes @peacedolantwins

[soncfseed]

REPOSTED FROM MY OLD BLOG: Probably my most important headcanon, so please take the time to read this!!

spoilers ahead, but im gonna look at ethans cutscenes and talk about how his bpd (borderline personality disorder) affects his actions and his perceptions throughout the story of new dawn. this is all just headcanon and my interpretation of ethan and how bpd would affect him. none of this is meant to excuse his more nefarious actions, but explain why my interpretation of ethan doesnt pin him as a selfish, horrible, awful monster, but rather a young man with a lot of unresolved trauma and a serious mental health condition who ended up making some terrible choices that resulted in a lot of pain for a lot of people.

0:05 - ethan’s introduction

in this scene ethan experiences some pretty quick and dramatic mood shifts, and has a pretty significant emotional outburst. these are characteristic of the mood swings and emotional dis-regulation experienced by many people with bpd. he starts off catching the captain off guard, sneaking up behind them. ethan has been taught to distrust outsiders, and a symptom of bpd he experiences is suspicion of others and sometimes brief bouts of paranoia. this kind of behaviour makes sense when this is taken into context.

he says that he might not be what the captain expects. this is part of his low self esteem and struggles with his self image and how others perceive him. he constantly feels as though he can never truly be his own person, outside of joseph seed, and that his existence is a disappointment to those who know him.

once he sees the book, he is triggered into a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. acknowledging that the deputy is the one who found the book, and according to joseph’s prophecy will be the true ruler of new eden, is what sets him off. once ethan goes into his rant about it should’ve been him, he’s experiencing a mood swing and sudden spike in his anger and irritability. due to his issues w emotional regulation and control over his expressions of emotion, ethan lashes out by screaming and knocking over the podium in the church. mood swings for bpd sufferers can be only minutes long. what pulls ethan back down to earth a bit is a sudden rush when he realizes he can work with the captain to enlighten new eden to the truth: that joseph is a man, not a messiah, and kind of a shitty one at that who abandoned them all.

3:50 - ethan’s first speech in new eden

ethan’s posturing here is just that; posturing. he’s putting on a bit of a show with the “non believer” bit. he does, however, not entirely trust outsiders nor would he trust that the people of new eden wouldn’t turn on him if he suggested that the captain go north. no, instead he plays off of what he expects the people will do to avoid potential rejection or rebellion. this plays off of his mistrust and suspicion of others, as well as serves to protect his secret interests (getting proof that joseph is dead to get new eden to move on from him) and his ego (tied to the bpd symptom of self image issues and unstable self realization).

ethan can’t help but be a bit sarcastic with “we are all his children”. sarcasm and unwarranted aloofness can tie into bpd, and here it definitely does due to his poor relationship with his father, and with the rumours surrounding his paternity in new eden.

while bpd does not inherently make people manipulative, manipulation of others is often something those with bpd adopt as a coping mechanism to manage their unstable relationships or unstable self image. ethan has adopted this trait in some ways and this is definitely one of them. he does not trust the people of new eden, and knows they wont listen to him fully. this is his main motivator for keeping his plan secret.

the fact that ethan feels he has to act a certain way when he’s the leader of new eden further contributes to his unstable self realization. he puts on different fronts to different people to try and both please them and protect himself.

when he says “they will at last understand that i am their prophet…”, this is in part because he feels he’s worked hard to be the inheritor of new eden. he’s not only joseph’s son (and even if he doesn’t like joseph he wants to be recognized as his biological son, making the rumours about his paternity even more hurtful) but he’s been a successful leader as far as we can tell. to think he will lose it all over a book is damn near panic inducing for ethan. well this is in part a kind of arrogance, it’s fueled by his extreme emotions/mood swings as well as how closely he ties his identity to his position within his community. because his self image is so unstable, threats to that cause him to act in ways that may seem irrational or extreme in order to try and protect his self image. also, ethan will only help the captain in exchange for something in part bc of his suspicion of others. he doesn’t want to offer new eden’s archers and resources without knowing that he will benefit in return. after all, if something goes wrong in new eden bc of this outsider and he allowed it, it’s his responsibility to take the blame and fix it.

5:20 - into the bliss

theres not much in this scene to tie to his bpd. one line i think is important though: “bring me proof of my fathers death and i will make sure you are remembered as a friend of the prophet”. well this can be interpreted as ethan saying to kill joseph, i dont think he is. ethan believes joseph is long gone, that he could never survive all alone for this long. ethan isn’t evil, he’s not asking someone to commit murder, he’s asking them to confirm that someone is already dead. sure, he’s self serving and he wants something in return for his allyship, but to him this is how he can ensure a fair trade, and that an outsider won’t take advantage of him or new eden as easily.

14:18 - ethan, interrupted

ethan’s big speech where joseph fuckin crashes it. at first, he literally does not even see joseph in the crowd. he truly believes he’s dead and that the captain will bring back proof of this. to him, adherence to his rule makes sense; he’s the leader, and things need to change. it is arrogant, because ethan has partially internalized a sense of superiority and entitlement because of his position as joseph’s son, and now heir to the rulership of new eden (he thinks). this combined with an unstable self esteem and self image makes him want total compliance to his rule. criticism, disobedience, they threaten his self worth and that can send him into an emotional spiral or severe mood swing. so, to try and avoid the negative consequences he experiences from perceived slights and rejections, he wants a clean slate and total adherence to his new rules.

when he actually sees joseph, he stops, stammers, and says “father?”. not the father. just father. in this moment, his father who abandoned him (who went out for smokes and never came back) has suddenly shown up in the middle of his speech about him being dead. his arm drops and he stands there, stunned and speechless. his first question is “where have you been?”. he wants to know why and he asks why. why did his father abandon them? abandon him? the answer is completely meaningless to him. it’s basic, it has no detail, and isn’t sufficient. he’s speechless again for a bit, breathing heavier and hyperventilating. he steps away from joseph. when joseph calls the captain god’s sword, ethan damn near does a double take. he’s literally standing in his father’s shadow while he exalts an outsider in front of his own son, after interrupting his speech and embarrassing him in front of everyone.

one of ethan’s symptoms is his overvaluing and undervaluing people in his life. this is when he switches from overvaluing the captain, putting too much faith and hope into them, to undervaluing and practically hating them. his relationship with his father is tenuous, and rocky. it is characterized by ethan’s intense desire to be josephs successor and publicly recognized as his son. ethan even calls out to joseph, upset about the fact that hes now suddenly and publicly being dethroned; joseph doesnt even look back at him. ethan rejects josephs words in anger. he has a sudden outburst in front of the crowd; yet another sudden spike in his emotions from a stressful situation causes him to say what he’s really thinking. “you abandoned me. you abandoned us.” ethan says joseph didn’t leave instructions or a message, just left ethan to lead with no idea how. he does the best job he can under these extreme circumstances, and now all of his hard work is for nothing. that would make even the most level headed neurotypical person upset. whenn ethan starts to lose the support of new eden, he breaks down a bit. the anchor of his self image has been completely ripped away from him in a moment. he storms off partially and his body language is pretty dire; head down, shoulders moving sharply like he’s breathing harshly, and then he turns to watch the crowd walk away from him. imo, part of why ethan doesn’t completely lose it in this scene is that he might be partially dissociating or beginning to dissociate or experience some de-realization from the sudden, acute emotional distress this moment causes for him.

17:45 - ethan’s response

this is when ethan says that the captain betrayed him. they had a deal. he completely put his trust into the captain, idealizing them as the person who could solve his problems, only for them to bring joseph back and make everything in ethans life worse. now, the pendulum swings to the other side where ethan begins to loathe the captain. saying that the captain should have killed joseph themselves is an expression of 1) the intense reactions people with bpd can have to certain situations and 2) his skewed logic because of it. what seems totally irrational to someone else might seem like the only logical solution to a problem for someone with bpd. the stress of such a painful, emotionally charged situation like this one. he never wants to see the captain again; on a dime he flips, from putting all of his trust and hope into one person to saying he never wants to see them again and that they betrayed him. this quick switch of very intense perceptions of others is a cycle of idealization and undervaluing that people with bpd may experience.

18:07 - ethan’s prayer letter

in this letter, ethan discusses how he feels he hates his father for the abandonment; how joseph “expected everything and gave nothing”, how ethan never got to really have joseph as a father for himself because he was too busy being THE father. he says wrath and envy grip him tight to the point he feels he can’t breathe. this is definitely indicative of ethans mood swings and intense emotions, especially the irrational anger and aggression many people with bpd can have. then, he says nobody but himself, his mother, and god can know about how he feels, and that he must put on a front for new eden and be a leader to them “no matter what”. this is absolutely something i can see being tied to his bpd. he is aware that expressing his thoughts, feelings, and reactions to others would probably get a negative reaction. he seeks to avoid that, as well as to avoid the judgment from others he thinks he would get. his unstable self image is complicated by the fact that he feels obligated to hide the symptoms of his illness, and pretend to be someone he isn’t. this only makes it worse, as he ties his social and therefore individual identity to “ruler of new eden”. he relies very much on the responses and reactions of others to gauge whether or not he seems “normal” or capable of doing his job.

18:27 - npc dialogue

ethan says that josephs followers see the prophecy coming to light, but ethan sees it as a chance for new eden to make its own path. this is also when ethan says that he is josephs biological son, and that his mother raised him outside of hope county and brought him there when he was young to be raised by joseph. she died from an illness on their journey. this is some pretty significant baggage for ethan. he wants new eden, and himself, to become independent. the only reason he stays in new eden is because of his mother. he loves her, and idealizes her in a way that never flips to undervaluing because the relationship is one sided since her passing.

19:23 - megan’s letter to joseph

this is important just bc it states megan raised ethan as a non believer but after the collapse taught him about joseph’s word. this is important for ethan because it means he had to relearn some pretty significant things after the apocalypse, including a whole new religion and worldview. this can be very confusing for a child, and in part explains why ethan isn’t totally on board with josephs word, or the all of new eden’s beliefs surrounding him; his earliest formative years had nothing to do with joseph seed or prophets or collapses. he had to convert, and did so as a child who couldn’t really understand or make that choice for himself. he is tied to new eden solely because of megan, and without her wish to have him be josephs heir, he would’ve left long ago.

20:08 - intermission/flashback

this is when we see a young babby ethan get nasty with joseph. this is an early sign of his bpd developing. he has an intense reaction and says something very hurtful to his father over not getting what he wants, which isn’t just the apple but his father’s approval. to him, this is another rejection by joseph, or it is perceived that way by a young ethan. constantly being told something wasn’t gods plan, or it isn’t part of a prophecy without further explanation was confusing and frustrating for ethan growing up. he wanted the apple to be like his father; he wanted the apple to feel integrated into his community like the others who were given the gift. this denial, one that is permanent and leaves no room for ethan to change or grow and become capable of handling its strength leaves him feeling defeated and angry. his reaction of “you are an old man, and when you die i will take one” shows a very quick emotional shift and a shift from idolizing his father and wanting to be like him to practically hating him, becoming cold and distant in mere moments.

21:16 - joseph’s worry

“ethan’s sin is pride. there is something deep inside him that no word of mine can touch. i worry that now as an outsider appears to take his place that beast will feed on resentment and grow stronger. ” YEAH ITS BPD YA DINGUS fdpgpfd but more seriously, ethans pride is a coping mechanism to deal with his ever changing self image and self worth. its a rigid barrier to keep others from knowing how weak he really feels, and how uncertain he is of himself.

23:25 - ethan’s betrayal

this is where ethan betrays new eden and sets them up so the highwaymen can destroy the settlement. he tolerates the highwaymen laughing at him only so he can get what he wants: revenge. this extreme response is from his bpd. his impulsive anger, and the extremes his mind goes to won out and he acted on his violent thoughts.

26:26 - ethan and the fruit

when joseph asks ethan what hes done (referring to betraying new eden), ethan says: “i did what i had to do. i freed myself, i freed us all from you, from your rules.”. to ethan this was logical. this was something he had to do. he didn’t take pleasure in it, he didn’t go into new eden and kill everyone himself. no, he handed them over to the highwaymen in a desperate, out of touch moment. the spark was there and his disorder was gasoline that helped the flames to spread. he reacted intensely, out of irrationally extreme anger, towards an entire group of people he had shifted to undervaluing. he felt betrayed so he returned in kind, but no matter how wrong that was ethan couldnt see it.

“i will have what you denied me. you gave it to an outsider but you wouldn’t give it to me. i am your flesh and blood” and explosively tells joseph he doesnt know gods will. he lashes out against his father, arguing with him and rebelling directly by taking the one thing joseph kept him from that he truly wanted. to ethan, in my hc, the apple is more than just power and more than just something he covets. its a symbol of joseph’s fatherhood, of his love; he gave it to everyone but ethan, his own son, and now he would take what he wanted from life with or without josephs input.

31:08 - the death of ethan seed

the first thing ethan says after he sees joseph is “father… i’m sorry”. he’s scared. he knows he’s going to die. he asks if joseph can forgive him. he knows he’s fucked up, obviously, not just by eating the apple but by betraying new eden. his last word is “father”. no matter how torn his relationship was with joseph, he wanted his father’s love. he wanted connection with his father. he wanted to feel validated, have his identity confirmed, even in his last moments.

[commander-rahrah]

RESIDENCY (AN OPEN HEART FIC): PART SIX

Pairing: MC (Jordynne Holland) X Ethan Ramsey X Bryce Lahela; MC X Bryce; MC X Ethan

Masterlist: Click Here

Chapter Rating: T (Swearing) -- I just want to say there will be Mature parts to this as well. Just for an FYI..... 

Word Count: 2800+

Description: Take me out to the ball game... Baseball chapter in Ethan’s POV 

Disclaimer: Characters, storyline, and parts of the dialogue are taken from Pixelberry’s Choices. They fully own the characters, dialogue, backgrounds, etc. MC Jordynne’s background is my own creation, based loosely off of MC in-game’s personality and provided with more details.

Author’s Note: Jordynne is a baseball fan, so I really wanted to do this chapter. A shorter one in comparison, but it is important to their development and relationship. Next two updates are Bryce x MC spicy, and then a headcanon fic that made me start this in the first place! 

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PART SIX

“Harper, don’t.”

She grabbed the pager off of her hip, not looking up at him. Shoving it in her pocket, she flashed him a look.

Grinding his molars together, he let out a loud breath through his nose. “Seriously? The only reason I’m here is because of you.” His voice was a harsh whisper.

Harper flashed her eyes to him, “Dr. Ramsey, I need to go do my job. You, go do yours.” She pushed her finger into his chest, before turning on her heel and leaving.

“My job,” He said through gritted teeth, “Is diagnosing patients, treating them and stopping the interns from killing them. Not this.”

“This is a part of it now, Ethan. As your boss, I’m telling you to do this.”

He let out a harsh scoff, “As my boss? That’s all you are to me now.” Pushing past her, Ethan moved deeper in the room, looking out the window to the baseball pitch.

He could hear Harper, apologizing for leaving and the fake regards from the executive team. He waited for the sound of her heels clicking away, before turning around. The strangers gave him wide smiles, sending him on edge. “I’ll be back,” He said, slipping away down the stairs.

Taking the stairs two at a time, Ethan found himself in the lower bowl’s bar. He let out a sigh of relief — looking at the crowd of normal people.

Sliding into a stool at the bar, Ethan leaned his elbow against the counter — waiting to get the bartender’s attention.

It had been a long two days. Dolores was still weighing heavy in his mind — as was Naveen. And the ridiculous competition — he cracked his knuckles unconsciously. Another reason to be mad at Harper — she asked him for his opinion, he told her he was against it and she went forward with it anyway. While grieving his friend and dealing with the potential loss of Naveen, he had to deal with the unbearable excitement of the new competition.

His face softened as he recalled yesterday, with Dr. Holland — she had known. Not about Naveen, but how Doreen had affected him. She had left the insistent questions of the competition behind, instead, she gave him some much-needed space. He hadn’t even realized she had slipped a chocolate bar in his pocket during a break until he was getting ready to head home.  He had shoved his hand in his coat pocket, fumbling for his keys when he felt it. She hadn’t said anything — but he knew it was her.  “You know, it’s okay to treat yourself sometimes.” Her words had echoed in his head again, as he had opened up his desk drawer and placed it on top of the previous bar — still untouched. He had slammed the drawer shut — angry at himself.

Staring blankly at the wall of liquor in front of him, he recalled the day when suddenly his ears perked up. He knew that voice. That laugh. Turning around, he saw her surrounded by her usual group of medical interns. Her blonde hair was let out in loose waves again, white shorts showing off her lean, tan legs and a cropped baseball jersey revealing a strip of her midriff. She had her arm wrapped around one of her friend’s elbows, giggling together as they headed towards the bar. But their eyes met for a moment — her eyes flashing with confusion and then hesitation.

Straightening up, he immediately turned around — his eyes wide.

“Dr. Ramsey?”

Ethan felt his stomach tighten in a knot, “Rookie.”

The next thing he knew they were sitting together on the leather white sofa in a private box. The Banner Health executives long gone, and they were both nursing the remains of their red wine. They sat in silence for a moment, looking out at the pitch below — watching players running around the bases.

Ethan was exceptionally aware of the distance of his leg to hers. She had them crossed over each other casually, and he hadn’t failed to notice them in the sunshine beaming through the large windows. They looked so soft.

Shifting his eyes away quickly, he noticed her looking at him. He furrowed his brows at her when she started to grin.

“One of our most promising young doctors,” She quoted him from earlier with the Banner executives, her smile teasing.

“Stop.” He took another gulp of his wine, trying to stop the heat from spreading down his neck.

“The future of medicine,” She squished her nose at him, trying to stop her laughter.

He rolled his eyes at her, “Well, I couldn’t very well introduce you as a colossal pain in my ass, now could I?”

Her eyes flashed, looking a little hurt, “Is that what I am? A pain in your ass?”

He chewed his lip, thinking carefully. “No. You’re not.”

Her finger trailed on the rim of her wine glass, thinking, “So, how do you think those talks went?”

“Fair to middling. But work like this…,” He shook his head, “It’s not why I became a doctor.”

She looked at him, her eyes filled with curiosity, “Why did you become a doctor?”

Ethan raised his eyebrows at the question, staring out into the diamond field. He was silent for a moment, lost in his own thoughts. “To conquer. To defeat the mysteries that defeat us.”

He turned to Jordynne, “My turn.” He asked as he realized they had entered some sort of twenty questions. “Why have you not entered the competition for the fellowship?”

Licking her pink lips, she hesitated for a moment. “Were you hoping I would?”

Yes. No. He thought, unsure of how he felt about it. “It’s unbecoming to flatter yourself, Rookie. You can’t answer a question with a question.”

“You were hoping, weren’t you?” She had noticed his evasion of her question as well.

“Not in the slightest.” He half-lied, “You’re— It’s a mystery,” He corrected himself, “And I cannot resist a mystery. Nothing more.” He shrugged, taking another sip of his wine.

“I think you care because we’re becoming friends.” She matched his sip, smiling through her glass.

He pursed his lips together, the top of his lips curving up, “Absolutely not.”

“You’re just delaying the inevitable.” She said to him, raising an eyebrow.

A smile finally broke across his face, “As all doctors must.” His fingers played with the links on his watch for a moment, “Does it have anything to do with Dolores?”

She shut her green eyes at the mention of her name, swallowing, “No.” Her voice was quiet.

“It wasn’t anyone’s fault.”

Jordynne nodded, “I know. You said.” She let out a loud breath, “I just need a day. Another day.”

He watched as she nervously picked at her nails, still looking out at the baseball game. “Thank you,” He muttered. “For the chocolate.”

A slow smile spread on her face, she looked hopeful, “Did it work?”

His blue eyes flickered to her — studying them. She really had wanted it too — to make him feel better, to help him with Dolores. He gulped, lying, “Yeah, it did.”

Chewing her lip, she smiled again before taking another gulp of wine finishing off the glass. “I should probably get back to my friends.” She had pulled her phone out of her pocket, staring at it quickly.

She stood up awkwardly, looking around the room, “Thanks for this, Dr. Ramsey.”

Ethan gulped down the feeling of disappointment rising in him, “Right.” He put his hands on his knees, raising up to meet her. Walking to the door, he opened it for her.

He watched as she pursed her lips, “I’ll see you tomorrow?” She phrased it like a question.

The pair stood together, lingering at the door frame. Ethan realized how close they were standing — he could smell her perfume again, and the red wine they had just finished. Stepping back, he nodded, “Of course.”

Her lips quirked into a smile before she left the room.

Ethan let out a loud sigh as she left, his eyes moving to their empty glasses sitting on one of the coffee tables. He hadn’t realized how late it was — she had been with him for a few innings and the sun was turning pink. What the hell was he doing?

He hadn’t wanted to be alone. That was it. But would he have asked one of the other interns if Jordynne hadn’t been there? She had done a damn good job with the execs too — she went above and beyond for the patients, for the hospital. And as an added bonus, she got him out of a boojee golf game with them too.  

She was still a mystery. He didn’t get her — he didn’t get the special hold she had on him. Why did he care so much? So she hadn’t signed up for the competition, so she had a glass of wine with him… So he could still feel how she felt sleeping on his shoulder the other day…

And the chocolate.

You know, it’s okay to treat yourself sometimes.

Moving to the window, he leaned up against the glass — trying to pay attention to the eighth inning. “Just focus on something else”, he thought to himself. His eyes shot open wider as the pitcher curled over on himself, vomiting before going limp on the red dirt. Ethan’s pupils grew smaller as he started studying the scene, watching the coach jump out of the bleachers and run over to the player.

His eyes darted over to a small group of people at the front, their hands flying up suddenly before one of the figures jumped up — rushing to the barrier. Ethan’s brows furrowed in confusion — he knew who it was, even from this distance. He watched as a familiar blonde swung her bare, tan legs over the side of the barrier. A few players rushed up to her, catching her as she slid down the green wall. Jordynne’s hair flicked wildly as she rushed to the unconscious pitcher, the players running behind her. She knelt down quickly beside him, her hand going to his neck.

The other medical interns rushed down, being let in through a gate onto the field. Making it in time for a gurney to be rushed out onto the field.

Ethan watched the scene unfold, a hint of pride in his smile as he watched her quickly work on the pitcher. Not bad for a Rookie.

Jamming his keys into his pocket, he pulled his car keys out before heading down the stairs. If he left now he could beat them to the hospital.

_______________________________________________________________________

Ethan had beat them there. But apparently, he hadn’t beaten them to the diagnosis. When the EMT’s rolled in the pitcher, they provided the expected treatment to him.

“The patient is Jake Sandburg, twenty-two years old. He collapsed from an accidental overdose from two medications — anxiety meds and NSAID. His kidneys…”

“His kidneys are taking damage, we need to get some fluids in him, get him stable and start a detox.” Ramsey finished for him. One of the on-call attendings took over, wheeling the patient towards a room.

“Do you know who made the diagnosis?” He asked casually, arms crossed over his chest as he watched them wheel the patient away.

“Yeah, she’s young, new here,” The EMT squinted his eyes, trying to remember, “Holland, that’s it! She’s good. Got it solved before we even showed up.”

Ramsey’s lips twitched — suppressing a smile. “Hmm,” He hummed, hiding his pride.

The EMT grabbed onto his radio, answering a call quickly before turning back to him. “He’s lucky she was there.”

Ethan couldn’t help the smirk that spread on his face, “Yeah. He is.”

______________________________________________________________________

Ethan hadn’t bothered to go home after that. He had locked himself in his office — files and textbooks spread across his desk.

He could figure this out. He had to. Whatever was killing Naveen, he would figure it.

The blue glow of his computer was casting light onto his tired face. He blinked, adjusting his glasses — he stared at the screen harder, rereading the same sentence again. “Why can’t I figure this out?” He thought, yelling at himself in his head.

Leaning back in his chair, he threw his head up and looked at the ceiling. He could ask for help — No, out of the question. Who would he even ask?

Harper... She wouldn’t get it. She wouldn’t fight for Naveen like Ethan needed to. She wasn’t the same anymore.

The other Attendings would spread gossip and rumors. He couldn’t trust them.

Holland? She‘s trustworthy. No one had come up asking for coffee from his office yet or asking him about Dolores. A rookie, but a good doctor in the making. And she cares, damn does she care.

Chewing his lip, he thought about it. No, he needed to do this. He didn’t need someone else getting involved. It would get messy. Too complicated.

A knock at his door caused him to flinch, he sat up properly in his chair. Straightening his tie, he coughed before speaking, “Come in.”

Ethan looked down at the mess in front of him before taking off his glasses. He rubbed his eyes, letting them adjust as he stared at the blurry figure standing in his door frame.

It was Dr. Holland. She was wearing leggings and slip-on sneakers — a big knit sweater hanging off of her, her tan shoulder peaking out. Blonde hair pulled up in a quick bun, no makeup on. He had never seen her like this before — it was either at the hospital or going out. Never the in between, just at home being herself.

A sheepish smile spread on her face as he realized he was still staring at her. “Rookie.” He said gruffly, finally acknowledging her presence out loud.

Jordynne put a hand on her hip, “I want in.”

He flicked his blue eyes to the clock mounted on the wall behind her, reading the time. One minute past midnight.

He squinted at her, “I’m sure I made it clear that the cutoff was midnight.” Folding his hands in front of him, he spoke again, studying her, “So go ahead. Tell me why I should make an exception for you.”

She stepped forward, not hesitating, “The entire reason I ranked Edenbrook first on my list of residences was because of you and the diagnostics team. All I’ve ever wanted to do is help people the way you do. Help the people everyone else has given up on. Please give me a chance to prove how worthy I am to do that.”  

Scratching his chin, Ethan pretended to think. He had to make her sweat a little. Finally, he let a small smile spread across her face, “You had me worried there.”

Grabbing one of the many papers from his desk, Ethan clicked his pen before scribbling her name to the bottom of the list. When he looked back up at her, she was beaming.

“Thank you, Dr. Ramsey.”

He eyed her, “Don’t thank me. Just don’t make me regret it.” He started to clear off the papers on his desk, but he noticed she wasn’t leaving. “So you made the save on the baseball pitcher, huh?”

“Well, my friends were —“

But he cut her off, “Jordynne, stop doing that. Don’t give other people your success.”

Her pink mouth opened but she quickly shut it, “I...,” She stared down at her shoes as she spoke, “It’s not about who won. The patient is okay, that’s what matters.”

“And what about when you lose?” He countered, pursing his lips.

Jordynne’s green eyes looked up to him, he noticed her gulp.

“Cause when you lose, when the patient isn’t ok... I watch you take the blame. Even when it wasn’t your fault.”

She chewed on her lip, letting out a loud sigh. “I know you said it wasn’t my fault with Dolores. But if I—“

“We aren’t doing this again, Jordynne.” He shook his head at her, keeping his voice soft. “It wasn’t either of our faults — or Dolores’. You should care — I want you to care, Jordynne. But you have to keep going.”

She stood in the same spot, her feet planted, “Right, keep going.”

“Talk about it, take a break, eat some chocolate…” He gave her a small smile, “But just keep going. Or you will suffer and then your patients will too.”

Pushing himself out of his chair, Ethan crossed the room towards her. “You’ve got to be back here in less than seven hours, Rookie.”

A flicker crossed her face, but it vanished as she nodded at him. “Right,” She started backing away from him, “Sorry for interrupting.”

His blue eyes studied hers for a moment, “You didn’t. I’ll see you tomorrow?” He questioned, repeating her from earlier.

“Of course,” She lingered at the door, “Good night Dr. Ramsey.”

Standing in the middle of his office, Ethan watched her go — closing the door softly. He rolled up his sleeves, before heading back to his desk — leaning over it, staring at the different files and paperwork. Letting out a loud sigh, he rubbed his eyes again — He needed to figure this mystery. Now.

Part Seven

[the-writerly-night-owl]

An Unconventional Meeting

Open Heart/Ethan x MC 

Summary: Ethan Ramsey just needed to be be honest with himself about Clarissa but that was hard to do with a coworker practically breathing down his next. 

Authors Note: For day 29 of the Choices March Challenge, Honesty. I have some headcanon’s on MC’s family thrown in including a semi familiar face. Enjoy! 

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The smell of fried food, sugar, and steamed veggies could only come from one place: Jim’s Palace Buffet. Ethan Ramsey could only swat the air in front of nose as if it would ward off the smell. Why on earth would the other doctors want to meet here of all places he didn’t know.

“Ramsey,” said Ines Delarosa as she saw him. “We have a table, grab a plate and join us. We ordered you a water.”

From his spot Zaid nodded at him to grab a plate. They had to meet at a buffet place as he grabbed a plate for himself. At least it wasn’t very crowded although there was a room rented out to a party not too far away from their table. They just had to talk about this whole competition and the list. Then where to rank each intern. He had his list in mind of course as he glanced at Harper Emery watching him.

“Ethan would you like to walk with me?” asked Harper as she smiled at him thoughtfully.

He resisted the urge to roll his eyes before heading toward the salad bar. Harper hot on his heels as they got closer.

“You remember to say nothing, you know which intern to keep at the top. I would be ashamed to let… Ohh I’m sorry,” she said stepping on the foot of someone in front of her.

“Your fine,” said the woman turning from her friend. Ethan stared a little confused as he saw the one person he never thought he would. Doctor Clarissa Sinclaire smiled as she looked at them. He knew meeting in a public place would be a bad idea but Ines wanted to treat them to dinner. “Doctor Emery? Doctor Ramsey what are you guys doing here?”

“Doctor Sinclaire it’s great to see you,” said Harper with a fake smile on her face. Ethan nodded as he watched Clarissa toss her copper colored hair to the side her blue eyes glanced over at her friend. This was too strange to run into her outside of work at buffet of all places. “What brings you here?”

“It’s great to see you too,” said Clarissa, “My cousin is getting married and we’re celebrating in the rented-out room.” She gestured to the room that wasn’t too far from their own table. No, no, no, he thought, why? “This is my cousin Hannah the lucky bride. Hannah these are my bosses Doctor Emery and Doctor Ramsey.”

Hannah shook both of their hands as she nodded politely at them.

“It’s nice to meet you, congratulations,” said Ethan coughing himself as the line for the salad bar moved forward.

“Thanks Victor and I are really happy together,” said Hannah as she smiled at her cousin. “It’s hard to believe that I’m the one getting married. We’d always thought it’d be Clarissa she’s the one that pretended to get married during recess in fourth grade.”

“I still can’t believe that you remembered that, you were only in kindergarten. The divorce was the next day though his kickball game wasn’t quite up to par,” said Clarissa charmingly. Harper laughed at that as Ethan cracked a rare smile. It was quiet as she filled her plate with a salad quick enough. “So what brings you guys here?”

“Just talking about business,” said Ethan as Harper glanced at him a hard look in her eye.

“I promise won’t tell,” said Clarissa as she watched them curiously. Damn why was she so appealing? He only watched her encourage her cousin to put more lettuce on her plate and less toppings. Hannah jokingly calling her mom and Clarissa punched her arm. She must have had a close family as he thought bitterly about his own.

They filled their trays before departing from the salad table. Clarissa and Hannah heading toward the meat counter. Harper just shook her head as she doubled up on her own lettuce too.

“Small world,” said Harper not as amused before. “I hope you don’t plan on watching her this entire time.”

“What’s wrong with you Harper?” asked Ethan now annoyed. “I’m not interested in her that way.”

“You keep telling yourself that.”

“What is that supposed to mean?”

They headed toward the next array of food options as he put some chicken on his plate. Nobody seemed to care what they were getting or listen to them. Thank goodness because he did not want to have this conversation in a public place anyway. His eyes straying to Clarissa who was talking and laughing with a man. He sincerely hoped that he was another cousin.

“I know that you’re looking at Doctor Sinclaire and you like her.” Well she didn’t exactly beat around the bush. “I happen to have my sources tell me that she likes you but that’s not exactly going to work is it? You’re not in love with her but you’re infatuated with her. What happens once you figure her out?”

So she did like him as part of him was a little relieved and the other part scoffed at any reason why. He wasn’t exactly kind to her the first day on the job. By they did learn to like one another. She liked him though. Ethan cursed as he saw but didn’t think Harper would. He was not going to care if Doctor Sinclaire liked him or not. Although that never stopped his eyes from straying to her every so often. She smiled and what looked like flirting with a guy at the end of the bar.

“I get it you’re jealous, but nothing is there honestly.” His voice raised a little his eyes still on her. “Now will you please shut up about her?”  

People turned to look at them as Clarissa and her cousin whirled around to look at them from the dessert table. Ethan just put on his best fake smile before returning to the table.

“I just hope that you know not to favor one competitor over another because of feelings.”

Her voice flat as she turned to go back to the table. Ines and Zaid sitting there already chatting. His eyes went to the room that apparently was rented out by the Sinclaire family. It wasn’t hard to see that they had plenty of people celebrating. A woman left the room with her son to get dessert.

He headed back to the table and sat next to Ines as she smiled at him. “Did you see Doctor Sinclaire? Her parents are nice and I met her brother and nephew too. It’s always interesting to learn more about the residents.”

“Yes, they seem very nice,” said Harper as Ethan’s eyes went to Clarissa as she disappeared back into the room. What had she heard or tell the other residents tomorrow. What could she be possibly thinking of him now?

Finally, finally did their conversation switch back to the competition. Great, they looked at the candidates and judged them on a variety of different subjects. Zaid, Ines, and Ethan all had to pull together their reports on each of their residents to make the list. Jackie made it high at 9. Sienna at 13, Landry at 18. Then Clarissa at 5 that seemed accurate for the most part. Of course, Aurora had to stay at one in his report as Harper looked pleased with herself.

Their buffet dinner was just about done when it was time to get dessert.

“Are you leaving yet?” asked Clarissa as she stopped in front of her table. “We have this extra cake and I wanted to give you some.”

In her hands a tray with a marble cake in her hands and four slices in front of her. Ines’s eyes light up as she took a slice from the tray as Zaid took one himself looking at her a bit suspiciously. Ethan and Harper taking a piece simply because the other two had. Was she always this nice to people? Instead of looking pleased with herself Clarissa looked more relieved then anything.

“Thank you so much, my nephew sneaks as many pieces as he can. So we were trying to get rid of all the remaining cake.”

“It’s not a problem,” said Ines as she brightly took a bite. “Did you make it?”

“Oh no, I don’t bake,” said Clarissa as Ethan watched her talk.

Then she left going to the dessert table to get some ice cream as Ethan excused himself to get some himself. None of the others seemed to notice where he was going as Harper was roped into a long conversation with Ines. Part of him really wanted to speak to Clarissa alone today as he went to get his own bowl. She seemed to be alone at least filling up a couple of bowls herself.

“Doctor Sinclaire,” he said as he saw her. “Mind if I get some.”

She stepped aside watching him fill up a tiny bowl of vanilla soft serve. It was quiet as he made sure that they were alone. His table seemed farther away then he thought. She waited for him to finish before breaking the silence.

“So do you guys like to get together and have dinner here?”

“Not usually Ines wanted to treat us; I think she had a coupon because that’s usually why we go out together.” Clarissa giggled as she nodded along. It was usually what happened anyway.

“Listen I’m really sorry us running into each other is awkwardly. Honestly this is just one big giant coincidence I swear, I don’t stalk you or anything.” She grinned softly at him as there was something genuine in her eyes. Ethan nodded understanding that. “So how are you this afternoon? Are you doing okay and drinking the good coffee?”

That last part was teasing as he shook his head.  “Just fine, it’s been a long day.” Short and yet cryptic but she just blinked up at him not entirely believing that. “Alright it’s stressful like always, part of me would like some alcohol right now.”

“You could have just said something, I can get you a beer from out of the party room if you really need it.”

He cracked a smile as Clarissa smiled sweetly at him before shaking his head. He probably shouldn’t before adding, “It was nice running into you here.”

“Guess I should do it more often.” Her shoulder bumped against his as the ice cream overflowed onto his hand. Clarissa acted fast finding napkins to help him clean it off his hand. Blue eyes met green eyes as they tried not to stand too close together. She looked down at her own tray with ice cream on it. “I should get back to where I was. It was nice seeing you today too Ethan.”

Reluctantly she turned back with the tray in her hands. He watched her go with that swing in her hip. His eyes lingering slightly where she was touching him to help clean up. Ethan liked that she asked about him and how he was feeling. Even tried to make him smile just a little. Maybe that was what he liked about her. She asked about him and his feelings. It was like running into a casual acquaintance rather then a co-worker that saw him as him, rather then the boss. She didn’t even ask him about work. 

Honestly? Ethan liked it.

[badgerhuan]

001 with Benthan, please tell me all your feelings (if I've even managed to be the first one to ask about Benthan)!

CONGRATULATIONS YOU ARE THE FIRST thank you so much for sending!!! now on to OUR BOYS

when I started shipping it if I did: i think i’ve low-key shipped them since rogue nation bc who didn’t but it wasn’t until after i saw fallout this summer that it bulldozed over me and my life, and i’m so grateful to have found its smol and cozy fandom on here. i love you all so much.

my thoughts: they’re just??? so soft???? like they canonically care about each other and very visibly openly worry about each other and jUST. IT’S SO RARE TO SEE IN A BLOCKBUSTER ACTION MOVIE FRANCHISE (I MADE AN ENTIRE POST ABOUT THAT) and they’ve never felt the need to “no homo” any of their more heartfelt scenes? I’M JUST, I LOVE THESE SOFT SPY BOYS SO MUCH. they’re IN LOVE.

What makes me happy about them: that they just care about each other so damn much and would both do anything for the other. benji would follow ethan anywhere, and in turn ethan would do everything he can to protect benji. they also play off each other perfectly, and, sorry to be a Nerd with my hogwarts houses headcanons, but they’re the perfect gryffindor-hufflepuff hatstalls combo that when come together becomes an unstoppable force of sheer will and determination. ethan might be careening through life at mach 3 speed at all times but benji will be there right alongside him to support him and they somehow manage to make it out alive (usually with the help of their ravenclaw and slytherin friends, who know when to hit the brakes for them).

What makes me sad about them: mmm sad headcanon time but they probably each believe “i’m not going to die of natural causes“. and both would rather die protecting the other if possible, even if they know that if the other did the same for them it would destroy them. (and at the start of their relationship benji still lowkey doesn’t believe he can measure up to julia, even tho he knows that ethan loves him. he doesn’t let ethan know that, tho. and ethan is absolutely terrified of the thought of ever losing benji, and it’s part of why it took him so long to take that step to be with benji.)

things done in fanfic that annoys me: it’s happening less now, but sometimes fics tend to infantilize benji a little. and sometimes lines directed at benji like “you’re a terrible liar” annoy me because benji is canonically a very skilled liar. benji is a very capable field agent, but earlier stuff in the fandom, people tend to forget that.

things I look for in fanfic: listen,,,,,,mutual pining is my Ultimate Weakness. if you have that in any capacity i’m SOLD. also top!ethan is preferred but i’m not picky.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: god this is such a hard question bc for me when i get invested in a ship i just…..go all in. i’m ride or die. i can’t multiship to save my life. BUT if i had to choose, i understand the appeal of will/benji and that’s also a very valid and very good ship. and honestly i am still very soft for ethan/julia, tho i also do love the canon of them breaking it off but still maintaining a good relationship, that’s also very rare to see these days. that said, i can also see ethan and luther having a queerplatonic relationship.

My happily ever after for them: them doing what they do best, defying death and murphy’s law side by side, but with maybe more kisses and hugs (and sex, I Guess).

who is the big spoon/little spoon: listen ethan is physically incapable of not wrapping his arms around benji protectively when they’re in bed and benji is very unused to being treated like he’s the Most Important person in the world but it’s ethan so he’s okay with this, and lets himself have this. self worth issues be damned. tl;dr- ethan is the protective big spoon and benji is the self-conscious but willing little spoon.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: anything as long as they get to spend time together tbh. when you’re risking your life for the world every other week everything else you get to do together becomes a blessing. they would happily cuddle together on the couch each reading their own book in silence.

(send me a ship/give me a character/send me 5 characters)